My whole life my family hated me and I was never close to them I never got motherly hugs.few years ago I moved in my grandma and met my boyfriend in sixth grade we got closer during the summer but he got held behind a year so school comes back around and I’m finding it close to impossible to be without him crying every time I had to walk away from him and go to class it got to where I could barely breathe a lot homeschooled now and he is too but during summer I saw him once a week we were doing ok now school is back again and I see him twice a month it’s hard but in three years I’ll be sixteen and we plan to be together then like fully and move in together I can’t wait to finally not feel numb His parents dont like me but it’s whatever and most adults or even kids our age don’t think we’ll last but I’ve never loved someone as much as I love him I’d rather die then live a life with out him I don’t have many friends people don’t like me I’m that quiet kid in class sometimes it’s hard to continue living when he’s the only one who gets me but I have him and that’s enough and in three years time ill never be away from him separation anxiety really sucks this one time he got grounded and I couldn’t even video chat him I remember screaming and crying for an hour it’s uncontrollable my friends all think I’m dramatic but they’ve never fallen in love with someone at thirteen they have a new boyfriend every week but we’ve been together a little over a year now and I’m looking forward to forever