I have been always lonely and lost in my own thoughts. Never once had I taken the initiative to talk with others.
It was going to change.... All these things... I am going to a new school, with new friends and environment. I really needed that. I felt suffocated in there.
My past memories haunted me. It reminded me of how my parents got divorced, my relationship with my friend became weak and I got used to stay at home. My happy life was vanished in a friction of second.
In my new school, others took initiative to befriend me. Although I never replied they
didn't ket go and pestered me again and again. They joked around me and offered me foods. They made me laugh and slowly I was getting better.
Once again I started to smile, I started to play and get in touch with them.
Even though I had maked small steps I was still in my thoughts that I needed to be alone to not be hurt.
I didn't pay any attention one day and drew on my book. Aiden the first guy to talk to me called out my name repeatedly. He made fun to let me laugh but I really didn't want to be disturbed. Though deep inside I needed someone's company.
During something he pulled my hand and my hairs and I slapped him in irritation and went home.
In my room I cried at my actions. I.. I...felt ashamed of myself. How can I do that?
I decided to apologize to him tomorrow. A formal apology.
The next day when I got to school, Aiden didn't avoid nor ignore me. He smiled that sweet smile as he reckoned me to come have some of the chips. How could he forget everything and smile?
I felt a burden eased away. His smile and assuredness that he would be by my side in my bad as well as good days.
Slowly I crawled up from my web I wove around me and began to enjoy my life.