I look up in the sky....the only thought which is lingering in my mind is..."would anyone care?" would anyone care if I die tonight...would anyone even cry?..why am I pretending to be this strong...? why am I smiling when all I want to is cry in your arms... why am I lying that I am okay? why am I even trying...why?
Why?...Why do i still crave to be loved by you...?
Why do I still crave to be hugged by you...be called those names...!
Why?!
Why do I crave to be the one instead of her...
Why?!
There is nothing I can do..!
Nothing...I just have to understand that you don't love me...dont care if I live or die...dont care...
But why is it so f*cking difficult?!
Even when my mind has understood...
Why can't I heart too?
Why can't it stop beating when you are around...?
Why...Even after getting broken into millions of pieces...its still begging you to love it with every small piece....!?
Why?!
Why can't it understand...?
Why is it still this naive to think you will be back...?!
why is love this powerful...?
why is love this painful...?
why can't my love be forgotten...?
why did you mess me this bad?
why....just WHY!!!
all because of love...
love...what is it?
love is something that does this to you.. it makes u vulnerable to that extent that all you want or need in life is your loved ones care and affection
love makes u feel all these emotions that one can't feel that often in real life.... it makes you happy, anxious, attached, excited...
but believe me... not getting the same love back destroys you makes u insecure.. makes u doubt your self
...I don't care anymore...
... you have hurt my heart till the core...
....you have numbed me....
...made my emotions sore...
...I am done being strong....
...EVERYONE, even you get me wrong...
...I am trying to fight on my own....
.....I am helpless.. all alone....
.....I went through all that abuse..
......now I wonder if it was of any use....
....I put myself through all this pain...
....why? I can't even explain...
.....i can't breathe...its suffocating...!
....help me...i am regretting..!!
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