ABCDEFG!

{Hayden's POV}

Isn't it great to have true friends? Even if it is one? That too for years? Even before the moment you can talk a word! That too of Opposite gender? With whom you can share everything? The one who can even get your silence? With whom you can rely on? Without any awkwardness! Without any hesitations! Without any future regrets! It's a bliss! A BLISS! Isn't it? None can deny! NONE! Though everyone doesn't have, but everyone wishes to have one! In simple, a soulmate!

But what if puberty hits you hard? What if you see her as more than a friend? What if you see her as a grown up gorgeous woman? What if you want to hold her in your arms? What if you had an urge to protect her even at the cost of your life? What if you want to see her face every morning you woke up? What if she is the only one that comes in your dream? What if you want to speak with her every day? What if you want to spend each and every moment of your lifetime with her? What if you want to grow old and grey with her?

But what if she only sees you as her best friend? What if she couldn't see you as a grownup man? Though she could understand you more than yourself but what if she couldn't alone see that unknown feelings developed inside you? What if she already has a crush on someone? What if she always drags you to watch him? What if she speaks highly of himself? What if she asks you the ideas for proposing him?

This is where now I am! We both were best friends, but the puberty really did hit me hard! Now I am standing here in the park, waiting for her to discuss how she gonna propose him! You may find it weird that I am willing to help her but since it's come to her happiness I can't be selfish! Indeed, I am jealous! I wish she could see me as a man! But...!! One side love feelings can't be understood by anyone! It's hurts like hell but still we can't do anything. We can't even digest the fact, 'we don't stand a chance'! But the happiness we get in this is something more than any person could imagine! I am damn sure, only one side lovers had felt the feeling that, 'He or she is the most happiest person in the world!' once in a time at least! And only one side lover can understand the feelings or pains or happiness of another! Maybe not fully! 'Cause we might have reached the same island, but we don't travel in a same way! I am waiting for almost an hour in the park. She isn't late it's just I am way too early.

After five minutes, she walked inside the park. I found her smiling as she waved her hand to me. She ran towards me, and we had a fist bump. We both started to say, "ABCDEFG, G is the name for Gandhiji! HIJKLMNOP, P is the name for Punjabi! QRSTUVW, W is the name for Western dance! XYZ, Z is the name for 'Zig zag zoom! Now stay still, STATUE!' Lol she said statue first. So I silently stood like a statue! She laughed at me. Her smile is so alluring! You might find this game silly... But it's actually our friendship game which we created in our childhood and still continue playing. I wanted this to stop when I came to know about my feelings. That day I said we aren't children anymore to play this, but she started to cry as she thought that I don't want to be her friend, so only I ain't willing to play. Later I convinced her and then we again continued. Now it's been five minutes I gave up. She demanded for chocolate as I lost! We both sat on the bench, and she asked, "H, When did you come? Are you waiting for long?" I just nodded negatively as I lied, "Just five minutes!" She flicked my forehead as she said, "You think, I don't know about you! It's four in the evening. We decided to meet at five. Knowing about you, I came an hour before, and you are still before me!" I slightly smiled as I scratch my neck. She always calls me 'H' as my name is Hayden. Everyone calls me Hay, Ayd and many. But she wants to call me uniquely, so she came up with 'H' in our childhood. And the habit continued and still she calls me that! The 'H' as a nickname might make others laugh thinking we are silly, but this is one of our greatest memory.

She sighed and said, "Ok then, now tell me what a boy would like? I mean how do you expect a girl to propose you?" The smile in my face fades away. She was engrossed in her talks that she couldn't look the changes happened within me. When she looked at me and asked me to speak something, I smiled and said, "Be you, he will surely like you!" She pouted and said, "I know but still I want to give him the best pro-" Her words suddenly stuck. Tears flow down her eyes. When I turned back following her gaze, I saw him kissing a girl. I looked back at her and saw her clenching her hands as tears flow down. I hugged her tightly as she buried herself in my chest. Soon they left the place and I reluctantly let go of her. Her cheeks were red, tears on her cheeks, her sobs were still ringing on my ears. My heart was continuously throbbing. I held her hand and dropped her at home on foot. She stood outside her house and held my hand tightly. I took a strand of her hairs and kept it beside her ear and whispered, "Take it light! I am always with you!" She faked a smile and went inside the house.

I walked to my house alone. The way she cried is killing me inside. Just how pathetic I am? With many thoughts, I went home.

Four years passed by! Our bonds became stronger than usual. She moved on. It was hard but still she did. I am so happy about it. But recently she started to avoid me. I asked her, but she just avoided my questions, but today I am not going to leave her until she answers all my questions. When I went to her house, I saw the door open. I called her name and went inside, but there was no response. Fear grown inside me as I heard some sounds upstairs. I took a vase nearby there and went upstairs. I took ninja steps and went upstairs and saw her study room door opened. And some voice coming from there. I heard her voice mumbling something. Thought of her made me more weak and with a sound thud, I slammed open the door just to see her sitting on the ground with a half drink bottle of Imperial Blue {whiskey}. I looked at the cutest... Damn it! The sexiest girl sitting down without her sense. Suddenly she became unconscious. How can she let her guard down like this? First how can she drink alcohols? From when did she start to drink these things? With a ton of questions, I picked her up and went to her bedroom. I laid her on the bed and admired her face. I picked up a towel and wiped her face.

{Author's POV}

Four hours passed... She opened her eyes as she held her head in pain. When she suddenly turned around, she saw him sitting with a smiling face. Her heart started to race, and she slowly clenched the bedsheets tightly in fear. He went near her and bend down to her ear as he asked, "Why did you drink?" The unknown sensation travelled down her body as she suddenly felt hot. She wondered if it because of the alcohol she took or the man near her. Gathering some courage she said, "That has nothing to do with you!" The anger triggered inside him as he held her both wrists and pinned her down on bed and shouted, "What the hell did you just say?" The sudden action caused immense pain in her wrists making her scream. Her screams brought his sense as he left her and sat down on the couch he was sitting before.

She rubbed her wrists smoothly while he apologized, "Sorry, I got angry!" She ignored his words as she held back the tears in her eyes. He again and again asked her sorry, but it was blatantly ignored by her. His heart felt like stabbed by many knives, and he felt totally numb. He hides his face with his hands as he mumbled, "I love you!" The out of blue confession made her heart stopped beating. She was about to say something but stopped as she hears his words, "I know! I know! I shouldn't love you! We are best friends but... I couldn't help rather than falling for you! Even if I love you, you are my one and only best friend in this world and I can't stand seeing you ignoring and avoiding me. If you don't like my character or behaviour or something you want me to change myself... Please tell me! I can't afford to lose you! That's the only reason I was even afraid to confess! What if you start to hate me afterwards, but I can't help myself now! I don't want to regret anything. I want to confess! Yeah, confess my feelings! I LOVE YOU! Do you have any feelings for me? Even the slightest? Do you at least willing to give me one chance?" As he finished his words, he looked at her face with a serious expression. Though he put a brave face, he was terrified inside. She breathes in and out and said, "ABCDEFG-" as she showed her fist bump. The hopes shattered down in pieces. He clenched his pants, the tears continued to flow down. After a brake of seconds, she continued, "H, I LOVE YOU, WILL YOU MARRY ME?" as the bump fist turn into half heart shape. He looked at her with widened eyes. He continuously blinked at her. He even pinched himself wondering if its dream or not. When it pains, he made an other half heart and kept near hers, As they made one!

The next moment he intertwined her fingers and again pinned down and asked why did she avoided him. She bit her lips as she doesn't know what to answer. With her other hand, she took out a note which is hid under her bed. She gave it to him, as confusions clouded his face. He slowly took it as he left her. She silently went inside the blanket as she made herself a cocoon. He slowly started to read. It was her diary. She isn't a one who wrote the things happen. She always calls him and tell him everything. But recently the changes made inside her made her write it. He entered inside her heart and soul without her knowledge. When the neighbourhood girl proposed him, and he rejected her. That time, the thought of him accepting another girl and leaving her soon pained her heart. Though he rejected now, in future he will accept one for sure! These thoughts made her go mad as well as made her feel jealous. Jealous of what if he became close to his girlfriend? What if his girlfriend became most important to her? And her many wandered thoughts were scribbled there. Later when she acknowledged her own feelings, she doesn't know what to do? Whom to share? That is one of the greatest pain when we realize that we don't have anyone close to us to share our thoughts and words. She had him! But... These things she couldn't talk with him. So she started to avoid him thinking to herself that her heart is just playing with herself! She also wrote in that, "My heart is just playing with me. I was already in love with the senior, then how can I love another one. Though I moved on, still!!! Even if I love him, no way in the hell he would accept me! That's why I started to avoid him. But I feel some pain near my chest. I don't know how to say. If he was here, he would have known clearly, but I can't even call him now." As he finished reading it, he closed the book, as tears of joy and happiness flowed his eyes.

He chuckled at seeing the diary and turned around to see his girl inside the blanket. It looked like the tortoise head alone peeking out as its body hid inside the shell. He laughed out looking at her as his hands placed on his stomach. Looking at him laughing by seeing her, she pouted angrily and went inside the blanket covering her fully. Seeing it, his laughter becomes loud as he said, "Is my baby shy? That she needs hide herself inside the blanket like a tortoise hides in his shell?" The word 'baby' made her blush hard as she held the blankets tightly hitting her face in the bed. He removed the blanket in a force. She gave up as she sat on the bed looking down playing with her fingers. He smiled as he picked her up in the same position and walked down. She startled by his action and held his collar, "Where are you taking me?" He replied, "My girlfriend accepted my proposal. Before she changes her mind, I am going to ask her hand from her parents and inform mine and tie the knot of red ropes within us to make her stay with me FOREVER!" She groaned in shock, "WHATTT!! THIS SOON?" The smile in his face doesn't leave as he said, "Of course! After all she proposed me! How could I miss this chance?" She hid herself in his arms in shyness as smirked and smiled at the same time.