Emotion?
I used to grew up being bullied getting beaten by my brothers getting yelled by my father
got disgusting look by my mother I just don't know why am I living like this....
everyday I got into school in my own my brother has the same school as me
every new school year of mine I thought I will have friends but it's still the same
they all bully me school home everyplace I got bullied
then I started to get used to it
I tried my best to impress my father I tried my best to be closed with my brothers I tried my best to be loved by mother
what should I do I just want family to love me
I don't know what I did wrong the only thing I know is
I'm only a mistake
years past I'm already senior highschool
brothers started to ignore me
so I feel a bit eased
few days later I made a friend it's the girl in my front seat she is beautiful popular talented loved by anyone
I used to hide myself all the time but she made me realize I made a wrong decision hiding
one day she asked me something "did you have someone who like" she asked me
I got frozen in a sec and asked her " what's like "
she was stunned what I asked her
I can see in her face what she thinking
did I don't know anything about it
why did I not know anything about it
for the mean time she explained it to me little by little o understand it
my brain understand it but my heart don't know I always feel confused what is emotion what is feelings should I study it
should I learn it.
is it a skill that can make my family loves me?
I asked my self
....... what is emotion? ........
then I looked at the mirror and try to compare myself to my friend...
I do look beautiful but there is a one thing missing about me
my eyes is not sparkle as my friend
