That day I died when.........
Back then I was 8 or 9 years old and he was maybe 23 or more...
His family had canteen near my old house and he sometimes take care of it..
I was very naughty and innocent back then. I liked romaning around a lot. I always went there to buy some junk foods to eat and I met him there a lot..
But one day something happened that made me die!!!
I again went there to buy something, when I went in he was watching pron in his laptop but at that time I didn't know what those people in the video were doing!!
I just told him to give me a packet of chips. He told me wait for sometimes!! He took me on his lap, I was sitting on his lap.
He, then forcefully kissed me on my lips... I didn't know what wad going on!!! And his hands were moving down there. He touched my vagina and started fingering me... I just felt weird, disgusted and bad!! I felt something wrong happening to me but don't know what!!!
Some sounds started coming from outside. He pushed me and gave me a packet of chips... Then I went from there!!
When I came back I didn't know what happened there!! I didn't talked childishly like I used to for almost two months...
I was not childish like before!!!
I became introvert but acted like extrovert..
When I was 11 or 12 years old. Then I got to know that I was sexual assaulted!!! I didn't know what to do... I told my parents what happened back then but.... they took it as a joke and told me to never say something like this to someone else... Then we move out to our new home oopps its house cuz there is no way it can be called home...
Thats how the innocent me died. And thats how I became like this now. And thats how I lost believing in someone.. I don't even believe myself forget about others🤣.. And here people ask me why I don't believe them!!
I became introvert but acted like extrovert..
Even now I have no guts to talk about this to anyone.
I love strong women, villainess and strong female lead in stories or comics.. I imagine myself being strong like them. I hate weak people and I hate myself being weak.. but as you know they both are two different worlds..
Thats how I came to hate the world I live in. Thats how I started hating humans even myself..
Its really funny isn't it, I tried to kill myself soo many time since that day but still not died🤣 seems like even the God despise me🤣😀....
Everyone is happy when their birthday came but I hate my birthday the most.. they wish to live s long life with their family on their birthday but I wish to die on my every birthday..
I hate humans but there are still some peoples I love!!!!
I wish my wish comes true the sooner the better!!
Bye!! Have a good day or night..🙂🙂😀😀
