they say am a girl... so I need to stay in my limits....they say am a girl so I should learn how to sacrifice.... they say am a girl so I should learn how to be proper... they say am a girl so I should try to rely on someone else,Am born as a girl so i should just get married... or they say see those see these how they are, you should learn how to be like them...But... WHY? WHY CAN'T I CHASE AFTER MY DREAMS??
WHY CAN'T I BE THE ONE WHO I WANT TO??
WHY SHOULD I BE SOMEONE??
I AM MYSELF
I DON'T WANT TO COPY OTHERS
SO PLS...pls don't compare me with others and you say proper...
what is proper?? * a tear of drop left her eye * Is sacrificing myself means proper or copying some one means proper or WHAT ??* broke out into tears*
You know... there isn't a day I never cried....there isn't a day when I laughed with my heart... I laugh....but in some corner of my heart....I feel empty...
But there isn't someone whom I could share this to....But everytime I remember every second of my life... I think of my life as a waste...why should I be alive then...can't I just die....Then I will be free right ?? There are 7 billion people on the earth...if 1 disappeared, nothing will happen right?? But still there is a side of me...which want to live...despite of all the things I have gone through... why...Cuz I wanna prove to the world that AM not someone but am myself. even if I didn't got compared based in gender...but they say am a girl so should stay in my limits.... Why?? i know... these words are only words...they can't describe how it feels... it feels like our heart is stabbed or more than that!! Is this just it ?? No....there is more...Even when I wanna laugh...my brain doesn't respond but my heart does..what can it do..after all am as still a little girl...I wanna express my feeling....but I can't.... There are times,when I tried to suicide....but still..I can't... what happens if I die...again its a disgrace to me....and all of them again blame me...and I don't want that...sometimes I wish I was never born in this world....even there is no human that loves me...but nature and animals does... and I can't see animals and mother nature being mistreated... like.... Animals are seen as a whole different thing from humans...I mean they are living beings too.....I know... I don't even have enough time to deal with my own problems.... but still I can't help but think about them
( hello guys, I just wrote something pls ignore it if it doesn't make sense 🙏
This is just my imagination of how it feels to be a helpless girl born in indian middle class family)
