When i saw him my heart flutter .
It's not the first time . I am seeing him.
It's just that I can't get over him.
He is best in his own type.
And i can't own his type.....
It's the best soothing morning.
When my parents said me to join some classes.
I didn't want to.
but someone says right destiny never work like you think.
I join that class.
In which he was my senior.
we just have a year gap between us.
Day by day .
He starting teaching me.
and i started staring him.
After thinking about past, i always thought
How different this heart is right.
Just by seeing someone and spending sometime in a day.
You got habitual of that person.
But that time my habit become my first love.
ofcourse i thought that......
After spending some months in that classes with him.
I don't know when he also starting falling for me.
And then one day.
one of his friend who is also my friend.
come to me and said ....
You know what he love you...
I was utmost shocked to say anything.
I can't explain that feeling .
Means you only tell , the person you fall for.
may be also falling for you .
Typical right.
It's rare ..
actually nowadays true love is only rare.........
..
And after one day he come and proposed me.
I was happy.
i was extremely happy.
ofcourse who will not .
when your crush come and say that
" I love you "
Day by day
I was falling hard for him.
Like i can't live without him.
In this one month .
we never done anything except holding each other hands.
Sometime walking and interlocking them together.
But after one month.
We didn't talk to eachother for 4 days .
we both are busy.Actually i only thought that .
I was waiting for him and for his messages.
But it's never come.
So i contact my and his common friends.
And the truth shocked me.
Friend- Actually he made ...... another girlfriend.
I hangup the class just after that line.
I know it's was my first love .
even if it's breaking .
i just want a reason to support me.
and i never get that.
After seeing him again and again , many times.
I just want to ask that question to him that just please give me a reason.
A reason to calm my heart.
A reason to stop my heart , getting hurt after seeing you with other girl.
A reason to stop loving you.
A reason to stop criticise myself.
that is i have done anything wrong.
But just after seeing him.
My legs always get freeze.
I want to go to him.
But i can't like i am tied with chains.
And like he wants that only.
He also never come to me
" To explain"
just like i was never there.
like after sometime
your wounds start healing.
my also start.
I got habitual to see him.
And start playing that pretending game.
That he was also not that important for me .
and his presence doesn't affect me .................
.......
And today also that pretending game is going on.
But truly saying.....
Today also there is hope...
Hope for.......
you can complete that last line by yourself..
and let me know
What's that hope for........
So it's real or just and illusion.
It's over you all....🥰
Thankyou..❤️
