He used to always laugh when he tells me to never take him for granted, I guess this was the reason I never took him seriously.
I met him in highschool, he was the first friend I made there. we clicked naturally he was really easy to love and by the end of the year we became inseparable. over the years our friendship become more meaningful and we ended up choosing the same college, we lived together in the same dorm and everything was great till he confessed to me.
I never thought that I was more than friend to him, it's true that his relationships were just a punch of hookups but I never had a serious relationship too, Now I can clearly understand that I didn't want a relationship because I had him to go home to but I'm afraid I'm too late now.
He told me that he loved me out of nowhere, we were relaxed watching a movie and the next thing I knew he was confessing his love to me, I didn't know how to react I panicked and left the dorm, when I get back he wasn't there anymore and now two weeks passed and he didn't show up.
While he was gone I found myself yearning for him in way I never thought I'm capable of, I miss everything about him, I miss the way he used to wake me up every morning, I miss the way we cook together on Mondays, I miss the smiles we share while studying, I miss the way he scolds me whenever I forget my keys, and I miss the way he cuddles me whenever he senses that I need to, he never misses the sadness in me even if I tried to fake a smile.
Now I see that I already have feelings for him but he is not here, he doesn't want to be here, he doesn't pick up on my calls nor he texts me back, our friends tell me that I should give him some space because he needs to clear his head, but what if he realises that he doesn't love anymore, what should I do with my heart then, what if he never spoke to me again.
he came back home late tonight he finally came back, I woke up at three at night to find him there in his bed right in front me, I couldn't believe he was there so I did the only thing I could think of I left my bed and I went to his, I needed his arms around me to feel at home again, I held him as tight as I could and I cried myself to sleep while he tried comforting me,I woke up in the morning frightened that it was only a dream but he was really here, he was already awake and brushing my hair with his fingers, he looked at me with his beautiful eyes and I knew I still have a chance, I grabbed him by neck and I finally did what I regretted not doing the night he confessed to me, I kissed him till I was out of breath.
