I don't it's love or just a crush I really want it to be just a crush but when did it turn to love is it love or just a affection exactly I don't know
I know him since eight grade but when come to 12th grade during some class teacher said something sarcastically about girls I kinda hate that whole boys in the class laughed I get irritated I turn to glare at them but he didn't laugh I really surprised he is different from others from that onwards I start notice him more how he talk to others he really so sweet I thought I can control my emotion I won't. fall in love but I don't know the feeling it different from the feeling I get during I read in romantic novel
even I don't know is that crt reason I start to stare at him without my knowledge even myself didn't realise that 😅😅 but when I realise is that he kinda react to that but I start to afraid and shy when see me my heartbeat start to increase and hyperventilate my mind will become blank
I am really afraid to even share this to my friends actually one time I wait for my who still in class but he think he may thought I waited for him he walk towards like he going to. do fight with me thank God his frnd stopped him and my frnd also came I ran away from there
after that I start to avoid him but I feel his stare on me I felt happy but I didn't react when I was class boys shouted his name I am happy but also scared academic yrs end after I didn't see him but also can't forget I start to search his fb id I got that I am happy just by seeing his face
I saw him after one year at medical entrance exam I don't. how to react. exactly I can't react my mom stand beside me after that I gather all my courage I msg him in fb neither hi nor any greeting word just "a" he replied" do you know me" I said "I know you but you don't know me" he asked"who I am " I just said I am your classmate and said my name and asked did you know me he said my place after I kept quiet he say if I msg him
I got seat in dental clg . i found his insta id and said to him that I have crush on him and he said what should I do for that .it touched my self respect so I said I want you know that what do you think about and he said I can't really remember you so I don't know it really hurt my self respect after that I unfollow in Insta and unfrnd in fb I am really in process to forget about him but I can't if I am sad just a memory make me happy I really don't know how to move on he is my first love I can never ever forget him his smile is enough for me to live I will always scold me why you loved him move on fast but I can't
