[Romance] Erased

Onesided love for a husband who acts on his own. Always hearing new relationship news with different celebrities and models. Loving someone sometimes always brings pain. The stab in heart with emotions is painful as a stab with knife. They were once a sweet couple planning to live a happy married life but on the wedding night, he was absent and never looked at her the same way he did in the past. Before wedding, was his feelings sincere ? the guard he put down in front of her, he confession full of sweet promises words, an act ? She loves him wholeheartedly waiting in the villa prepared only for her even after three whole years. Yearning for his love. Hoping one day he would come before her and ask for forgiveness for all those pain she felt but that was never possible. They say everything has a limit and she had enough of it. Even though she might regret or not she chose to change. The deep feeling of loving someone that can be erased.

WHAT WENT WRONG AFTER ALL ?

It was another thunder that striked shaking the whole ground. The heavy rain falling continuously and someone fearing it.

~click~

The light turned on making the whole bedroom bright. The bedroom larger than any typical living room with extravagant furnitures. The rich and expensive interior with the glass window touching ceiling and floor facing the ocean where the waves were getting louder and louder.

"Oh madam, I am so sorry" An elderly nanny gasping came forward pitting then embraced her along with the blanket.

She cried aloud after feeling safe. She missed her mom who would always give her company whenever it rained and her father who once surprised her with sounds proof room. She was in vulnerable state like someone who died countless times and resurrected.

The nanny was helpless and speechless after her madam fell asleep on her embrace.

The large comfy bed which never gave her warmth she desired. On the scary night like those, she would wrap herself with the blanket and curl on the rug beside the bed on the ground. As she was finally asleep, nanny slowly stood up pulling the pillow from messy bed and adjusting to her madam's head.

The nanny looked at her tired face. Those red swollen eyes from crying. It wasn't like she never cried but she would mostly be silent and expressionless.

The nanny always treated her madam as her own daughter. She still remember the first encounter with her four years ago. Cheerful, happy and laughing with master beside her.

The nanny took a long breath and left the light as it was and closed the door.

[Next Day]

She woke from her nightmare and realized she again slept on the ground. She was feeling weak and helpless but stood up anyhow. Taking the shower and putting on same kind of unfashionable outfit, she headed for her breakfast. As she walked down the long stairs, her nanny was working on kitchen as usual and she felt relieved.

As their eyes met, "Madam, you woke up. Please sit" , she started to place breakfast on the plate.

"From now on call me Mia, nanny. Like my mother used to".

Nanny was halt hearing it. "Sure", she gave a bright smile to Mia placing the plate on the table with glass of water.

Mia stared at the plate with no appetite. She wasn't hungry but still took a bite as nanny herself prepared it.

"Can I have a look at the Ipad ?" she asked.

"Um...", Nanny hesitated. Mia knew what happened when nanny would act that way.

"It's fine".

Nanny gave her the ipad and again it was the news of president of the largest Entertainment Company in Asia. He was on the trending topic with famous actress Shi Li. It wasn't new to Mia scrolling through the news of her husband with different women but that day she cried. It was a silent and peaceful only the sound of drops of her tears falling continuously on the screen.

She saw the word 'engagement'. The famous couple spotted on time to time was about to get engaged.

She stood up from her chair and walked outside of the villa. The nanny was speechless closing her mouth with her both hands. It was a second time she saw her madam cry.

Mia walked out from the door looking at the flower garden she took care of, when there was nothing else to do. She always felt the connection between the beautiful flowers and her life. They blossoms when taken care and loved like she was in the past. Loved by her father, mother, older brother and her boyfriend. And they wither when everything falls apart.

She had a nightmare the night before. It was the ending she saw if she went through the path she was walking. Her demise with no one to mourn for her death. In her eyes, the world is colourless, odorless and cold.

That morning Mia only stood and stared at the wide sea. That place was like a cage to her tied by the string of her emotions towards her husband and hope of him returning to her side but that sting broke that day.

She was always afraid to fly out of her cage thinking how scary it would be outside alone in the whole world not realizing she had been lonely for the whole time. After reading the news of the engagement between her cousin and her husband, she realized there was no hope after all, not even a trace of it.

The vast beautiful sea in front of her eyes were kissing the sky. The free world she was afraid to put her step into. She realized, what's the world beyond that sea ? Will I be okey if I walk out of this place ? Will I have courage to meet my parents ? Will I be able to return home ? "Home" that made her miss her country, Spain.

Upto then, she lived for someone else but now, she will live for herself. She returned inside picking up the Ipad from dining table and typed a mesege to her husband not expecting a replay.

Seen, but again no replay. She scrolled through the history of meseges only from her side. Her genuine feelings that were kept on read and tossed aside. Not a word form her husband.

She paused on the stairs again looking at the sea through glass, her eyes clouded with tears. She dialled the number always hiding behind her head not expecting to work but then,

"¡Diga!"

Her eyes became wide and the tears she holding fell down. It wasn't the tears for her husband but the person who picked up her call.

"Brother", she mumbled.

"MIA ? IS THAT YOU MIA ?", she could feel the loud shaking voice from him.

"yes brother" she answered sitting on her bed.

"Are you okey princess ? We miss you baby girl. Mama and Papi miss you so much. Your bestfriend Lili miss you and our little Panther miss you."

"Me too, everyday"

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They talked for whole half an hour. She realized her dad was sick. Her golden retriever dog Panther would always look at her picture. Her best friend Lili almost flew to her but got caught by her brother in an airport. All those time they were silent was because they wanted to give her time. They wanted their baby girl to live her own life and take a decision without anybody interfering that way she would grow up to be fine lady.

The last thing she asked for her brother was "Please take me home".

A little trace of smile formed on her beautiful lips after his brother said he will pick her up the day after. She thought, if she called her husband saying she was leaving would he try to stop her ? As thought, she unconsciously called her husband too late to end it but got no answer. She took a long breath and opeaned the closet in her bedroom filled with shaby and colourless clothings. She used to think, if the person she loved wouldn't look at her there was no point in dressing up.

She split the cloths with hangers in between to both sides and opeaned a secret room. The room as same as she had seen three years ago all filled with designer cloths, bags, heels and accessories.

It was the closet room designed with the help of her husband who turned his back on her. She finally took a good look at appearance in the large mirror that reflected her whole self. The young brave girl who had the world on her feet was long gone.

She was like a fallen angel from heaven who lost her wings. But, an angel is angel who would fly with or without wings because her whole existence is to fly in the sky, freely.

Mia took out the same suitcase she firstly entered with, packing the things she used to treasure.

She called nanny to give her helping hand. Even, the nanny was clueless about the secret room full with dresses and everything when her madam always dressed plain. She always thought her madam was from the countryside not asking the unwanted questions about her backgrounds. She only did whatever Mr. Zhong ordered her to.

The painting was safely piled up at the corner. Mia was an artist and she would always express what she felt through the paintings.

"Madam, they are safely kept and this one was still on the board".

"Thankyou nanny. Please pack that as well", she said softly.

"But it's not complete".

Mia slowly smiled and said, "I will complete it but with changes".

Nanny was shocked by the answer as if it hold a different meaning.

"How's your son ?"

"He will wake up soon, madam. I am supporting him financially."

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They talked and did everything Mia ordered. It was the longest conversation between them in all those years. The day slowly went by and Mia financially packed her stuff placing it safely beside the door.

She took out a wooden box which she was always afraid to touch from the shelf. Placing it on the bed, she filled the paper and placed the file on the table beside her bed. After the day ended, as usual she had a dinner on a long dining table alone staring at the sky through the glasses hoping the storm wouldn't come.

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~murr-murr~

The clock was ticking. Through the glass of skycrapper, he would see small buildings, trees and people size of an ant. Then all of a sudden, he was startled with the vibration from his phone.

It was 'Her' who again texted him.

It was shorter than usual texts. She would always write about paragraphs and paragraphs saying she loved him and whatever she thought. He would always ignore before reading any of them.

"Mr. Zhong, the presentation is over" A man said walking away from the projector.

"Okey", Zhong answered gesturing his assistant standing beside the door to take the file. The meeting was filled with people about thirsty of them all in neat and tidy suits before the President.

Zhong stood up from the table buttoning his suit and walked out to his office.

"Wasn't president little off today ?"

"Why would he ?"

"I heard he is getting engaged ?"

"Me too. Some says he has a wife but I don't think it is true at all. I mean our innocent actress Shi Li is the best match for him".

"He is famous twenty seven years old bachelor after all".

There were staffs discussing making a small group on the way. The assistant cleared his throat and everyone dismantled after seeing the tall president behind him gazing with cold piercing aura for blocking the way.

They finally reached his office as he asked for a cup of coffee to his assistant and adjusted himself on his chair. There were a lot of paper works to do. He signed and turned his head towards his phone place on the table.

A little suspicion about the text from his wife. He thought she would burst out in anger hearing the news about the engagement. Anyway, whatever she would do that wouldn't change anything. He was busy as always ignoring her so called feelings.

~bang~

All of a sudden the door bursts open as his pen slips when signing a document. He shuts his eyes pissed and looks up. It was the actress Shi Li holding a cup of coffee instead of his assistant. She approaches him placing the cup on the table as he let go of his pen.

"Did you miss me ?" She leaned towards him.

"Yes". He said without buzzing with his cold eyes. She was never able to read if he meant it or not.

"Did you lock the door ?", He asked in his husky deep voice.

"Yes. But I wouldn't mind if anyone sees us. We are getting engaged after all".

He was startled of a second and stood up from his chair. His cold lips collided with her. She was shocked for a moment but she pressed against him with smirk. He kissed her deeply brushing his touch inside her mouth as she kept his pace letting out a small moan.

"Do you wanna do it in here ?" She turned backwards pulling her skirt up on the table and unbuckled his belt. He was doing nothing and just coldly watching her take the lead. Then all of a sudden the phone rang. It was saved as 'Her'. Li Shi's eyes narrowed seeing it.

"Get up", he ordered Shi Li who walked beside knowing it wouldn't be good provoking him when was angry. He would always stop himself after some point. She was sure he wouldn't have sex with her no matter how much she seduced him.

But, that didn't mean she haven't had sex with him. On sudden days, he would always be angry with something and be rough like a hungry beast on the bed trying to forget something with pleasure and she liked that.

Zhong stood there only staring at the call. He didn't pick up only holding it. The call ended and he waited for next one which didn't happen. He aggressively broke the phone throwing it against the ground. His always stiff face was burning with rage.

Shi Li was watching him from the couch after adjusting her dress. He walked towards her and she was little afraid but he fliped her like a pillow tearing the red thin dress she wore. He unzipped his pant and started with her. The office was filled with Shi Li's moans in pleasure and assistant hearing from outside looked out for anyone contracting the president.

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[The next morning]

Mia woke up early in the morning but crouched on the bed doing nothing. She was happy and sad at the same time. Her mind with full of thoughts telling her to be free but her heart with emotions begging her to stay. As usual, Nanny would prepare a breakfast for her madam but that day she was absent. After hearing the news of her husband to engaged with another, nanny gave her a personal space leaving the breakfast at the door.

The morning went by and Mia finally walked away from her bed. She took a cold shower to wake into the reality and cut all the emotional ties with her husband.

She wore the black tight short dress with the neck top. The black pencil heel with red soles and some accessories that matched her appearance. Re-checking anything left behind, she gave a final look at the documents she placed on the table and to her room where she spent most of her time.

~tak-tak~

The heels against the stairs got an attention from the nanny who was doing chores. Her eyes were wide seeing her madam in such an appearance.

She was beautiful, more stunning than any of actresses and models. The black color outfit gave a cold yet seductive aura. The simple dress that moved like a second skin, draping her curves and swishing silently.

Her straight light brown hair falling like a fall and kissing her waist.

The white jade like skin shining through the exposed area.

The nanny was speechless and only stared at her madam before stopping in front of her eyes.

"Here", she gave an envelope to her.

"What's happening madam ?", she asked not able to hold the question any longer.

"Do you wish to see me happy ?", she asked an honest question with sad glimmers on her deep eyes.

"yes madam, I do", nanny eyes became wet.

"That's what I am doing. I want to live for myself from now on. There may be countless questions you want to ask me but you know me more than anyone. I know you raised Zhong from his childhood and you want best for him but everything I did was vain. He doesn't want me nanny.

I am tired of waiting for him. Searching for answers which he doesn't want to share with me than others. My heart hurts and now I feel like my tears are dried up. I know you wouldn't question my decision and try to stop me but please don't hurt yourself", she had a sad smile.

"I understand", nanny took Mia hands and both of them sat on the couch. She ordered gardener to brings suitcase and remainings to the main entrance. She then just looked at the Mia for all she could with sad expression like she doesn't want to let her go.