Third;
Like I said that the person my best friend liked had always liked me. So, I also liked him. We have mutual feeling for each other. We were really happy with our relationship. He was also there for me whenever I needed him or whenever I was in trouble. When he got to know what my best friend did to me, he was really angry. He literally tried to kill her. Thank God, we were there to stop him or God knows what would have happened there. I was really happy to get a partner like him. We were in a relation for more than 2 years. I was really blessed to have him. But I didn't know that no one was happy with it. Not even a god. You know what, I was being cheated on by the person whom I loved the most. I didn't knew about this. The person who was so sweet to me and would always clings around me and care about me was cheating on me.My whole world collapsed at that time. The person whom I loved the most stabbed me million times in a heart. When I got to know the truth I didn't know what to do. But I wasn't able to escape from him.I became a bird in a cage. I was locked up with him forever. I just became his caged toy;a thing;and a showcase treasure. I didn't knew that he was only obsessed with my body. Ever since we were in a relationship, we didn't do anything as I wasn't ready. So, he just cheated on me. After that, I became his precious and treasured toy. A thing to fulfill his desires. He locked me up so I couldn't escape from him. And even if I tried to escape, I would be punished.I just became a lifeless person. There was not a soul in my body. There were no emotions left. Everything was gone. With all those beating, torture and his sexual desires, my whole body was destroyed. Every pat of the body hurts. Every part of it reminds me of his over possession. I just really wanted to end my life so I would be freed from his grasp. But nothing works. It hurts a lot but there was nothing I could do.
This is where I learnt that love is lust and obsession.
Fourth;
I signed in relief. Remembering those past memories filled of betrayal and pain. Only pain and sorrows filled me up when those past memories flashed in my mind. The happiness we shared didn't even exist in all those pain as they were all gone. Now, I really didn't believe in anything, " family, friends, love". It didn't exist in my life anymore. It brings me into tears. But nothing happens in life as we wants. It doesn't always go in the direction that we have chosen. But seeing the person who is sitting in front of me makes my heart skips a bit. It just makes me to love someone once again. This just feels amazing. This feeling feels nostalgic. The person in front of me have a son;adopted. And his son loves to calls me mum even though I'm a boy. Because everyone knows that his father loves me and was wooing me. Even though I didn't believe in love but whenever I see him, I feel tickling sensation in my stomach and feels like I'm stuck within him. I will have a weird feeling and I couldn't help but be shy and embarrassed around him. Like the quote "Everyone deserve a chance" I also gave him.To be precise to us; and me. So, we are currently in a relationship. But I don't know what name should I give this relationship. I'm afraid if he will also leave me. It just hurts more thinking that and unknowingly tears starts to flow. Whenever I am with him, I feel extremely happy and at the same time worried. The same thoughts will always haunt me. But he proves it all wrong. Day by day, I could feel the love he has for me. He would always spoil me in each and every possible way. To be in loved and care under such a person feels like I have fully lived my life the way I wanted. Along the way he taught me that, " Not every people are same and not every relationship ends in the same way". His parents treat me as their own son. The live I didn't get to achieve from my parents were given by them along with their support. I could feel my tears flowing when they first time tell me I could call them mom and dad on our first meet. The words from their mouth were really sweet and it pains a little as they loved me more than my own parents did. But all the pain vanishes away within their care and the feeling of having a family. Along the way being with them or him taught me so many things and I am really grateful for him.
This is where I learnt that love is an amazing feeling along with trust, loyalty and the feeling of belongness.
Fifth;
We all believe that everything that happens in our life happens for a reason. But no one knows,why? Is it true or not? But at the end of day we may get the correct answer. I will say that love is everything but I believe that love is fate. The fate that I have chosen. And all those things happens in our life was our choice.
If I didn't had came out of closet or accept the truth when they told me, then the sadness and pain would never have been here. We would have been in happiness but I would have been lost in a void of my guiltyness for hiding such a big truth. So, I choose to tell the right truth. It was my choice of life. And all those other things would not have happened. And if other things didn't happened then I would not have met the one who was my happiness and my whole world. So,I believe that the love is fate that I had chosen in life and that fate was only achieved at the last being the light in my world which was filled with darkness before.
This was the destiny that the life had chosen for me but the pages found there were all written by me taking one step further each day to achieve my dreams and goals which were fulfilled at last where I choosed to end my tale... a imaginary world that I have created to choose and to continue the written path.
I would not end the whole part here. As love only meant those. It has many different meaning with each people's perspective. And I just thought I also forget to explain all those meanings of love in my life. So, why not? Make another one.
Love is;
-Forgiveness
-A beautiful regret
-Promise
-Bitter truth
-Harmony
-Respect
-Memory
-Blessing
-Responsibility...and so on.
So, there is no such word to describe love. It has infinite meaning but I will always believe that " Love is a fate".
