"Just tell me the name baby... one name"...
he kept asking that in my ears while his big and hard dïck thrüsted into my hole...
"Haaa... Caius... More... more"...
I couldn't answer his questions... even though my head was filled with that man's name.. it didn't came out... Am I scared ?.. why?.. I'm free now... I broke free from that bàstard...Why am I still.... I can't forget that sinful and disgusting past...
"Caius.... make.. me forget everything... please.. Everything... even my name... Caius... help me"....
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it was a spring..... I went to school hiding my bruises under that white uniform I always liked.....
June Simon.....
present Teacher.....
like every other children.... all I wished was normal life.. studies... friends... enjoyment... happiness... in my case those were the things I couldn't buy... I was alone.. and creepy....
Look at June.. he looks like a ghost...
yeah man.. he creeps me out...
he even stinks of cigarettes...
I heard his father is a drunkard and gambler....
poor him...
I can hear them... I can hear everything .... their eyes... their words... But I felt nothing.. because they were true...
But... Everything changed when one guy showed up in our class... Caius Abraham.. son of a Mafia Boss... rich and handsome... Everyone were like hypnotized by his charms.. they covered his like bees...
But I remember two three time we glanced each other.. he have very beautiful hazel eyes... He even smiled at me.. that was the first smile I ever get from that classroom.... His smile felt warm.. and I became greedy.. I glanced at him often .. just to see that smile...
That day....
"Father please... No.. No... don't do this.. please"...
"you bàstard...how dare you to come late.. why didn't you make any dinner.... you know I was hungry"....
I hated my father's leather belt... because they always left mark wherever they touch... I hate it... I hate it...
Day by Day.... the red marks of leather belt on my body started increasing... I wished I had siblings or mom... not vent my sorrows and cry loud.. but to plead them to share these torture... I can't take this all.... Well I think...I did something terrible in the past... terrible that murder...
I was confident in myself... even in poverty and torture.. I will never cry.... But oneday at school...
"Hey, can't you see June...I was standing here.. how dare you bump to me... you stink... A girl yelled at me"...
My legs were trembling... is it because my body is giving up.. no .. not yet....
"Sorry"....
"Hey..... creep guy.. did you touch me girl"...?..
"Yes baby... he touched me"....
"You bàstard how dare you".....
all I remember was a powerful fist landing on my face.....
it was painful... I couldn't held back... my whole body hurts... I lost my control over my body... My senses were blank... I felt like a thousand needles penetrating in to my body....
AHHHHAAAAAA........ I couldn't control... I remember my classmates gathered around me and looked at me pitifully.... my loud scream reached all over that school... I saw Caius tooke in his arms and ran towards the nurse's office... I couldn't stop my screaming.... I couldn't stop my tears.....
Then my secret was no longer a secret... a poor boy who was brutally torture by his father for years... I got help from the people I thought strangers... My father was arrested.. I got some aids... and Caius talked to me...
"Why you didn't tell anyone?"...
"I was afraid"...
"you don't have to worry anymore"....
"Thank you"....
even though he was the son of a monster Gangster... he was kind.. we became close.. everyone in my school.. started talking to me.. I felt like I could smile... But when everything turned good.. I became greedy... I fall in love with Caius... I wanted him to be mine....
"June... do you wanna play basketball with me"....
"no Caius... I'm not into sports... I will rather read a book"...
I hid it.. my greed... I buried it... inside my heart...
the nights when my father with his evil grin.. visited me in my dreams... I wished caius was with me... hold me in his strong hands and protected me... I think that buried seed of my greed started growing as a tree inside me....
But oneday... a fruit from that greed tree fall down.... infront of Caius...
"June... you just kissed me"...
"ha... I'm ... I'm sorry".... I don't know how much distance I ran that day... I ran as far as I can... I couldn't face him.. O was afraid.. I thought he will hate me... But...
"How can you run away like that.. after doing something I wanted for so long"...
"what?".... I could feel blood rushing to my face to make it red... My eyes were filled with water..
June... I like you.. he whispered in my ears..
"I like you too.. Caius... I like you"
... that's the second time I cried.... Out of happiness... that Caius gave me...
It was college life.. My nightmares were fading away.. I was becoming more and more human.. in Caius arms I felt... safe and loved...
But that day... when I saw him again... My father...
"you dirty bàstard... you ruined my life... I will kill you"...
"Father".... Again I ran towards my safe zone...
"Ahhha... ahhaaa...Caius... Caius.... More.. erase my past.. Make me yours ...more"...
"Baby... Just tell his name... tell me ... I can erase Everything .... your pain, sorrow, even your name... Tell me June.. what do you want?".... Caius's sound echoed inside my head...
"Caius... Hhaa..My caius... I don't want him in this world... Erase him.. Make him vanish... My father"...
"Yes my baby.... My only June"...
Caius took June in his lap.. thrüsting into his little hole... sucking on his ñïpplês... Kissing him roughly...
"My June...I love you"...
"Caius My love... stay by my side"...
"Forever"....
I gained freedom from my past......
