(Life is short for someone who is willing to live, Longer for those who are hoping to die)
He and I were wht? not stranger,not frds,not enemies, not sure.i don't know how ?when? it all started , I fell in love with him.there was sth .till now! I can not figure it out ,wht was the thing tht kept making me fall deeper n deeper for him, was it his voice or was it his sincerity?
Even when we were with each other , I Couldn't figure it out !how much he meant to Me. when I was in verge of losing him ,I cried So hard .I could no longer hide my feelings For him. I was terrified even having thoughts Of losing him .I was dumb ,may be fool not Trying to admit "tht I already fell for him. n A Funny thing is tht he also fell for me, we were with each other ,Even from a long distance I could feel his pains ,I could understand wht he needs.
After sometimes ,he started to make excuses, like he was running to run away from me,like he was tired of talking to me.I felt so insecure tht I could not take it .
Bt as a time went by ,may he started losing interest on me?may I was on attractive as I used to be?may be he had enough of me? may be I was not able to give him my full attentions when I needed to take care of my own family matter.
(Yea I admit tht I was not pretty as other grls u liked,I admit tht I was not able to give u
enough of times,I admit tht I was horrible person tht I only gave u troubles .bt still u never understood my sincerity, my loyalty, my harshness ,coldness ,u took me as a rude tht was good slap on my face,at first I thought u could understand my coldness which were filled with warmess on the inside ,bt u were just like other who gave me a title of being cold person.)
{now I feel like I was toxic person for him coz
all I gave him was troubles }
I could not give happiness nor could I be the one for him.so at the end I decided to leave him, I left him in the worst possible way i could ,nor could i talk to him nor could he talk to me..................................................
Bt even now my heart still long for him still Hoping for him, still missing him, bt these r My only wishful thinking which can not come true ..
I had seen a dream with him ,I had wishes to live my life with him ,🥺🥺bt unfortunately it all turned into a nightmare inescapable one. Tried to forget bt when I trying to forget him
I just remembering everything...
can not help bt to have my eyes filled with tears ...........
