True to life
I am a kind of girl who always like to hide a girl who dont want to talk to someone
I loved my family but i am shy to express my feelings to them i always want to be far from them
I dont like to make chat's with them, im a kind of woman who always wanted to be alone specially when im just at home
I dont know why my personality became like that i just woke up i have that kind of attitude, i am easy to be irritated. Small mistakes i got angry
Everynight I am always crying, for some reason that i dont know... Im afraid of thinking that my parents will leave me soon
There is so much stress sometimes i punched my self because i hate my attitude but whether i want to changed those attitudes i cant make it
I always woke up with so much irritate We're not rich we're not poor either, we live a simple life
I still remember the day, that day is the very saddest part of my life im about to gave up, im so depressed
I am thinking that day to drink a poison or either get a knife and cutted my pulse
Thankfully my mind convinced me not to do it
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I have so many friends at school and so many to talk with but after class my attitude will changed again, i will be that silent again i wont talk to anyone again
Sometimes i felt something in my heart why do i have this kind of attitude
I was grade 7 When I was about to be evicted from the house, this is the day when i wanted to stop breathing
Im just 11 years old and i am just grade 7
How would i live my life on that very young age? Well i did a great mistake's i deserved to be kicked out of that house
What mistake's i did, I'll tell you
We're eating that day when my mother come to me And he hugged me as if tenderly i hate that kind of act so i got a little bit hehe lets say yeah i got angry i told her the words "pahanga!" that is a Filipino (pilipino) word [if you'll translate it in English it means impressive but if you are a pilipino the word impressive is not only it's meaning]
I talked back on her and the fight between us starts, she became emotional like she says " im your mother" and "I'm in debt just to follow what you want" and more words that makes my heart fell hurt
Then i realized im just a mistakes
What is the very saddest part is when she pulled me too hard to go outside our house she say "leave" my tears cant stop from falling
I can't blame her because it's really all my fault, our house has upstairs after crying i go upstairs she even told me that i cant go to school anymore and that was the very unacceptable
I love studying even if I’m not smart, i love going to school because in school i am always being happy with my friends
But next morning I was still able to go to school and in the next days , my mom and I got along well, I also noticed the changes in me. I became talkative infront of them and i became a happy person along with them
And this pandemic came, so much stress because of this pandemic we cant go outside our houses, we cant talk to our friends in person, and we cant go to school. The government decided to make classes in online and gave modules
Im staying in the province so we only have modules, modules are so many and those questions is so hard to answer but i still got those answers... In this time of pandemic i got more time to spent with my family... Yes it is boring staying at your house but
I love this me and the family members became more close to each other... My attitude changed
This pandemic and those events changed me
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