I used to be a girl with full of dreams. When I was a child, I wish I'm already an adult so that I can help my parents to find a job, my parents said to me that I must to go to school so that I could learn more. When I entered the school I ended up being by my classmates because I'm a tiny and cute little girl. I don't like being bullied so I always have a cutting classes. My mom gets angry at me so she decided to stop me from going to school.
I decided to get a job but unfortunately the one who took me was an old woman. She wanted me to go to school and after class only i can help her, so I followed what she said but a year later she died, So I had no choice but to return home. In return of her kindness, i promise to be serious with my studies, from then on, i seriously go to the school and never mind the bullied students.
When I become a high school student I took the scholarship so I can get a free tuition fees in that way I will be able to learned without thinking the expenses but due to my carelessness, i failed. Because I failed, my scholarship is gone, I never believed in God, that time. i mean I know that there is a God who created the heaven and earth but does it mean i believe in. What i pointed out is that, at the time, I learned to start to calling him and beg for his help, I feel depressed and I wanted to killed myself, I felt like I was alone in this world and no one will understand my feelings, I learn to talk to him and said what I wanted to say. Everything that's in my mind that day, I say it out loud in front of him, It was like, he is in front of me and I was like a baby trying to get his attention.
The day i got a failures in my 1st year in high school, that was the time i make a decision to find a job, i feel like there is no hope at all.
The next day my far far away neighbors ask me if I interested in the scholarship they had given to me. I was shocked and wonder, why me, of all those people they already knew, why me instead of them. They said that God talked to them to help me because he knew my heart and suffering in life, he didn't want me to give up so he find a way to help me.
I don't know if it's true but they offer me a good opportunity so why should I refuse rights??
Because of them I graduated in high school and experience to enter in college. I don't know why but in the end I'm the only one who give up the opportunity to reach my dreams.
I talk to God when I'm about to give up and failed him. I said God i know that I will make a big mistake and I will regret my actions and for sure that I will be punished in the future but I need to do this, thank you for not giving up on me, I wish you never left me after this.
In that moment I continue with my decision but this time is different because I know I am not alone in making a decision because God is always there for me, from then on, whatever I do, and wherever I go, God will always be my companion and I will never be alone.
