Well hello everyone, I present to you my short story based on a true event that took place in my country. But the name is imaginary. My story is based on a very important topic and I hope you all will accept it and like it. So let's begin.
Heyy, I'm Samara, a 19 year old girl studying in college. Just a NORMAL girl but sadly the people around me don't think so or may I say they don't take me to be normal. So you all must be now thinking that what extraordinary features do I have that people around me take me to be not so normal, well you are going to find out soon.
So, my story began when I was 16. At that time I was still in school. And something very weird happened to me, I started feeling attracted to my best friends or let's just say the girls near me.
It was very weird at first. I often used to think, that why, why is it that I feel that way about my best friends or my close friends. I was really very confused, and didn't bother about it that much at first.
But then slowly my feelings, this attraction started getting stronger and growing into something that I couldn't even understand.
I was really disturbed, I wanted somebody to talk to, I wanted to share my thoughts, my feelings with someone.
After giving this matter a lot of thoughts, I finally came to a conclusion that I'm a lesbian.
Yes a lesbian. I like girls. But though I came clear about my thoughts, my feelings were still tangled up.
I thought about talking to my parents first but then I thought that what if that won't understand me!?! What would happen if they don't accept me! So I dropped the idea and faced all of this alone.
But one day, I finally mustered up the courage to talk to my closest best friend and tell her about it, about my feelings towards her.
So I did, I did tell her everything and I expected I little bit of support, acceptance from her, but I didn't get anything like that instead she stopped talking to me, she stopped meeting me, she started staying away from me.
And slowly this matter started spreading around in my school and later in my college. People started making jokes on me, my sexuality.
I got disturbed, I started having anxiety and then finally one day I decided to talk to my parents, my family about it.
I told them, I made them understand and you won't believe what they did next...
And no, they didn't support me instead they got me a psychiatrist, they asked me to get treatment and my brother who heard everything came to me and said "gross" and went away.
I told my parents that no, I'm not crazy, I tried to explain to them that I don't have any psychological problems but no they didn't understand, they didn't care about my feelings, all they cared about was there freaking reputation.
My relatives who came by sometimes, mocked me saying,
"we had so much of expectations from you, we thought you would become a great doctor, and make us proud but look what you did, you completely messed up our family name."
My cousins, my female cousins stayed away from me, they started feeling insecure around me.
My brother, once came and said to me that," "how will I even introduce you to your sister-in-law, I would be so scared that what if you start taking an interest in my wife", he laughed and went away.
Can you imagine my own brother did this to me. How can I expect support from others when my own blood related family abandoned me like this!
So what if I'm a lesbian, is it my fault? I can't control my feelings, and where is it written that you can't be a great doctor if you're a lesbian or a gay or bisexual?
I got depressed, I tried to commit suicide three times, but whenever I tried to do so, my parents and their helpless face came in front of my eyes. Though they did not support me but I couldn't hurt them by taking up such a big step.
So I decided that suicide wasn't an option, you can't run away from your problems, you can only stand on your own ground and face them. Even if you're alone you have yourself and that's enough.
I decided on becoming stronger. I decided on facing all of these remarks, taunts, jokes everything with a brave face because after all I hadn't committed any crime.
If I like girls and then I like girls. If they can't accept it, that's not my problem.
People thought it was a FLAW, that I'm FLAWED but I thought it was PERFECTION, and that I'm PERFECT so yeah...
I'M FLAWED BUT PERFECT
Hey guys, I hope you liked this story. Yes I know I chose a very sensitive topic but honestly in my country alot of people like Samara, need acceptance, they are scared of coming out truly about their sexuality as they thing they'll get bullied, and honestly it's really upsetting because there's not much I can do. All that I could do is hope that people will start accepting them and taking them as normal human beings instead out seeing them with eyes filled with judgment.
Love has no gender people, love is just a beautiful feeling that could bloom between anyone.
I decided on writing this story here as I know mangatoon is a huge platform not only for presenting your creativity, your work but also for giving out important messages, so through this story u tried to give out a message that
There's nothing wrong about being HOMOSEXUAL. You're beautiful, everyone is beautiful just they way they are.
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR GIVING MY STORY A CHANCE.
