We never had a time where we could address each other as significant others. So we took our time to get to know each other. It was a futile move to resist the temptations and it was easy to give in. But alas!!! We both had our own fears where we could not be truthful to each other despite wanting each other. But it wasn't our fault either, we were just trying to get out of the guilt we both had on our shoulders. Something felt off in between us but we were afraid to address them because we thought it will end up separating us. But it would be a lie to say that every lie was a beautiful lie which i wanted to put my faith on. Such manipulative is one of our kind. Not knowing what is behind our meetings and selfishness, we get hurt by each other countless times. But deep down we know we can't leave each other. When the truth strikes in, we pretend to be unknown and try to go with the flow. Isn't it useless to be in this relationship you say, but you don't know how beautiful these scars are and how I adore them. I cherish them and when i look at them, I treat them as souvenir which I earned while being with you. This toxicity is the reason I am still alive. Sure, we ruthless but we are what we need from each other. Couldn't we just end all of this?? No, The answer is firm and we both can't agree more on this. Everytime you appear in front of me, I just can't help but feel emotional wondering how could i meet someone like you. We are polar opposite but i guess, that's why we okay and endure each other flaws like that. We accept each other's imperfections and let ourselves grow on each other. We never know what tomorrow holds for us but believing that every morning you'll be by my side is enough for me to last all life. I love it how we fight all the time and then one of just give in and then each other feel how special we are for each other. These silly talks with no conclusion , long talks with no reason and in the end laying on each other's lap just to recharge ourselves is what I love the most. I accept there are multiple feelings growing everyday in us. But the most overwhelming is when you are here with me. I guess I am a masochist but honestly, I am fine with that or even more than that.
