im alone again...like always I just wanted someone to love me..understand me...always beside me...always know my feelings even without me telling..but...I have no one..I wish to be like them...they are happy with their soulmate...friend...lover...Mt family...I envy them..I keep cheering myself that "___its ok, one day you'll have someone who will love you. keep smiling" well....to forget about me being lonely...I keep focusing on studying. to make my dreams come true, to travel to be a Stewardess like I always wanted....but...I really can't scape...
I try to change my personality to be like them....I try to copy them...but...luck really don't want me...I just got called "Bitch", I try to act like I don't care...but deep in my heart...it's like a knife!...I just wish to die like I don't exist...but...I really want love...why I can't have it...even when I was little...why I always see Blood,dead people,fighting...and many things I don't want to see and dont want to repeat..I wish that...I didn't got born...
