it all started when I met you..... the way you smile, the way you laughed, the way you talk, the way you should your cuteness, how beautiful you were ,how bold you were, a pretty You were, how cool you were, how smart you were, how beautiful you were inside and out, made me fall for you, you are the cutest thing ever,
the time where I confessed to you, I was so nervous that you'd reject me like you've done to other people who confessed to you, but you didn't, you smiled and happily excepted me with open arms, I was so relieved but I was more happy, I I was able to spend my life with you happily, it sometimes even think about marriage! silly me! you are so cute at times, a clumsy kitten I'd say, you are very funny, I loved you so much and so did you, I was happy and so were you, but what I didn't know about you was..............
your problems, your pain, or suffering, your anxiety, your loneliness, your depression why.....just why didn't I find it sooner!? so that I could-................
save you....
why didn't you tell me!?, I'd always be there for you no matter what! I'd never leave you!
.....but.....afterall that.....it was you who did....
I'm sorry for not noticing its sooner...... I wish I could make you more happy....... but no one's life is perfect........ if only I.....no..... I want to see your beautiful, cute smile once again not the one in hospital bed but...... a real happy smile.....so.....
I hope you will be waiting for me up there......... it won't be long before I join You too...... maybe your smiling at me from up there, but you won't have to forever, I'll be there, and so we can leave our life in a next life happily........
see you soon my love.......
