I picked up the photo frame on the table beside the bed. I placed my hand on it and memories started rushing through my head. It was a photo of me and my boy friend at our graduation. We were so happy... But, look at where we are right now.. Who was once the person I loved now the person I despise.... Do I really though?? do I really hate him?
I sighed
I shouldn't lie to myself, I know I still love him.. and loved him just enough for him to love someone else..
I laughed sarcastically
guess I wasn't good enough?...
I got up from bed and layed down in the bathtub..
I started drinking alcohol...as I sobbed. after a while I picked up the knife and started cutting my wrist. not too deep. cause I was still kinda afraid.
What am I even holding onto?
I then took a deep breath and..
-MARIE!
Matthew shouted my name. Why does he have flowers in his hands?
- what do you want??
- What are you doing??! put that knife down!
- why does it concern you?
- Because
- let me take a guess, you love me?.. pretty lies
- Babe don't do it!
- Don't call me that!
- Calm down, please tell me what happened
- are you for real?
- believe me it was an accident, I was drügged
- Oh stop it, I know I'm not beautiful enough... I'm ugly. I was never good enough..
Matthew walked towards me. He put the flowers away
- You are MY PRINCESS, NO ONE is as beautiful as you are, stop hurting yourself
He grabbed my chin and kissed me.
He broke the kiss.
-You are beautiful..
