I am feeling so depressed since few months but don't know why, I have also moved on from my first ex and also second ex and I'm in relationship with another one.... I texted him and waited for 6 hours but he didnt reply and few moments later he replied, I replied him back, but... he's offline again. but this isn't he thing which is killing me. the thing which is killing me is.... even I don't know what exactly it is, feeling to kill myself right now but I'm such a coward. I want to die but I want to meet an online friend of mine who is like my elder sisters and acts as my mother, I'm addicted to her and my BF. tommorow is 13 December 2021, my parent's marriage anniversary and also the day of tests where all of my classes will get dipped in intense tests and I'm still not studying I know I'll fail but I don't care about it coz I'm useless..... I just want to hug my BF so tight and never let him go..... I just want to see my online bestie for once.... and want to Slip in something comfortable like coma for a week or month is also ok....
SORRY, for ruining your mood
