"I'm a 19 years old girl living a simple life with my family. My life is boring having no friends to talk. Always at home watching some random staff.
I have so many insecurities within me. Sometimes I keep asking myself why I am like this? why does it have to be me? and why can't I love myself? I keep asking the same question but every time I ask myself I can't find the perfect and right answer.
I rather cage myself in my room than to go out and be judge by some random people who only know how to mock other. Because of having no friends at school I was always lonely and alone. Just sitting at the bench looking at every person passing by. Yes! I sometimes get jealous and feel so insecure but I always shrug this nonsense feeling because this feeling is not good at all.
I've become an introverted person. I rather stay at home than to go out and exposed myself to the world full of negativity.
Until one day my world turn upside. My family move to another country and I have to enroll in another school. Another school another nightmare for me because what I've said I'm an introverted girl.
But I was wrong living in a new environment. and enrolling in a new school change my life. Some bunch ladies introduced me to a kpop band boy. After introducing I've decided to watch some of their video be it a funny video, music video or fanmade video. After days of watching I've fall inlove to this group because of their music, their friendship and their love for their fans.
Whenever I fell so down, depressed and sad. I always watch some of there video. After watching their video I feel so relax and I literally forgot all my problems.
This group doesn't only taught me to love their music and friendship. but this group taught me to loved myself, be myself no matter who am I , where I come from, my gender identity, my skin color just speak myself..
Because of them I've made some friends. I no longer cage myself but I've free myself from all the worry, negativity,insecurity I have within myself.
I'm already 22 and I'm so thankful that I've meet them. They change my life. I must say they become my inspiration in everything.
It's been 4years now since I've meet them and I've promise to support them no matter what happens...
( P. S; Comment Down if you know who I'm talking about.)
(This story is based on my own experience and my friends experience.)
