With you I’ve always wore a facade to fool you, to build an image for you. But this facade was slowly killing me.
What can i do? You loved the facade version of myself, that’s why i had to hide myself and put on my facade every time i see you, because it was the only way to get your interest.
The facade mask i built, The Icy, Mysterious girl. It caught your attention right? I’m glad that you noticed me even if it was just a facade.
You never had a interest on me, it was just an internet for my facade.
I molded a pretty lie just for you.
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Love is Blind.
Love can make you blind.
I became blind for love, i was blinded by my love that i turned to a blind eye from the truth facing me right now. I could erase myself and you could make me your doll.
I would be your pet who would be by your side, i would follow whatever you ask me to.
For you i could pretend i was happy when i was sad.
For you i could pretend I was strong when i was hurt.
My love for you is so pretentious, yet so real and unreal.
You’re in-love with someone else and yet why are you sticking with me? Even though its like that, I’ve turned to a blind eye towards everything and just focused on you.
I love chatting every night with you.
I hate talking about her every night with you.
I love hanging out with you.
I hate being doll-ed by you.
I love the attention you’re giving me.
But even tho there’s other thoughts, it didn’t matter.
I thought if i you’ll be by my side then perhaps, would i have a chance?
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For you i could pretend.
For you, i can be your doll.
For you, i can be your tool.
Use me, whenever you want.
However you want.
Im good, even if what you’re showing to me is also a facade, I don’t mind.
I could pretend that this is all real.
I would fall into my delusions.
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Used me as a girl to make someone jealous.
Use me to rebound your one-sided love.
But darling don’t you see me?
Darling you’re slowly killing me.
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Im sick of this love.
Im tired of this love.
Tired from you.
Tired from chasing you.
Tired from this facade.
Darling I’m sick of this fake love, Im sick of you.
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You we’re like a drug, you were bad for me right from the start till the end.
While I just enjoyed myself in the moment.
As the feeling of euphoria fades...
My love for you fades...
I realized and found an answer.
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Crystal Clear
Isn’t Crystal clear that I don’t want you anymore? That i’m leaving you, and ending all of this mad love.
But even so i say all of that, i still want you.
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I was mad for love.
Mad in love.
But now I’m sick of it but i still want it.
Bad habits die hard.
But i never knew this day is coming earlier than expected.
Im ready to let go.
No...
I’ve already let go long ago.
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Because fo this fake love, I lost myself.
Who are you?
I ask every-time i look at the mirror.
Because of love, I’ve lost myself.
It’s time to find myself.
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I found myself, I learned how to love myself.
But why?
Why are you back.
I’ve let go already.
But there’s still some lingering feelings.
But I’m different.
Who are you?
Im me, but better, smart and wise.
I still want you yeah, a lil bit.
But if i go back to you, i would lose myself again and it would still be a fake love.
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Self love and respect was all i could offer to myself. I won’t be ruining what i worked hard to build again.
But it’s time to smile and bid goodbyes, I found myself, Im freed from this fake love, from this facade.
I lost you.
But i found myself.
Loving you, I forgot to love myself.
But it’s all good now.
Yes
