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It was a peaceful day I was so happy I finally collected my courage to confess my feelings to my crush. I took a shower I washed my hair with two type of shampoos so my hair smell nice(that was just out of excitement)
At the Shower
I said to myself
"What if he turn me down"
"What if he never loved me"
I push away my thought and after shower I wore the nicely ironed clothes so I look clean while confessing to him
*for your information his name is Tom* (nickname)
I can't tell his real name
and then I picked up my bag and went to school
my Dad drove me to school
At the classroom
my female bestfreind came and said
"So I you decide to confess today" 🥳
*she knew that from grade 4 that I have a huge crush on Tom from kindergarten*
Then my male bestfreind came and sat beside my seat
he said
"Are you sure"
I answered
" yep 100% sure"
he said
"I don't think he's into girls tho"
I said
"And what in the world makes you think that"
he answered with a detective face
"look our so many girls from our class and other class has confessed to him these all years but he never accepted anyone. Why?"
I also put some thoughts about it
it looked quite real
but I have to give it a try
I watched the confession letter inside my bag at that time I wished to god that he wasn't into boys
Then class started he didn't showed up
I was worried for him
the teacher was Explaining about History and the legends of spirits
*which was really boring*
I was dozed off
then Tom came inside the class
The teacher looking like a fireball he was so angry on him
Teacher: Why are you This much late ?
Tom : sorry Sir
Teacher: Get out of my class and Stand outside
Tom obediently followed his orders and went outside the class
I said to myself : this is the right time go for him
so I pretended to fall asleep while the teacher was Explaining
The teacher didn't saw me
I was so mad when I was sleeping secretly in his previous class yesterday he immediately saw me but when I wani him to see me he is going Blind wow just wow hat's off to him(the teacher)
he was Explaining a topic
I dropped a pen to get his attention so I get caught while sleeping
yeah he saw me immediately he Threw his pen on me
Teacher : ______ if you are here to sleep then get out of my class and Stand outside NOW!!!
I quickly/secretly grab the conference letter from my bag and
I went outside the class I saw Tom standing outside I joined him
Tom asked
"What brings you here😯
I said trying to maintain my excitement as much as I can
"Um I was dozed off and I don't know when did I fall asleep"
he said
"Um ____ I have been collecting my courage to tell this to you"
I thought
*is he going to confess to me*
I said
"wanna tell what to me"
he went quite for a while
he took a deep breath and said
"I have a huge crush on your brother. I-i-i-im Gay and I'm so into your brother"
Everything happened so fast I wasn't able to process all of the things he said
The person I have veen chasing for from the kindergarten is Gayyy and he is Freaking into my
B-b-b-b-brother
my whole life from the kindergarten was wasted on chasing a guy who was into my Brother
I immediately looked down as I felt my eyes getting blurred with my tears.
I can't think of anything to say to him
suddenly he said
"I want to confess to him can you tell me about his favourite food and things etc etc etc"
I secretly wiped my tears and looked up he was looking at me with hopes
I decided to stand for him
I can't be with him but I can give him happiness by standing by his side
we talked so much about my brother
I realised that being his friend is more fun and interesting instead of falling for him and getting shy whenever we talked
after that we became close friends
and i made some plans to gat them closer with each others *and my BL lover mind helped me a lot*
after some days I found my brother's diary I know that he write almost everything that happens to him in his diary
so I picked it up and went to my room to read it
well my brother went shopping with his friends and Tom
I knew he wasn't. coming back early not before 11 o'clock or 12 o'clock
so I read his diary
after reading for some mins I found out that my brother also has a crush on Tom
since when?
Since they met
~Flash back~
they met at the sports day my brother was a senior
Tom was taking part at the 200 meter race
I was cheering for him
I think that's how they met I can't exactly remember
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it was also written in the diary that my brother and Tom has bumped into each other so many times and whenever he saw Tom he get
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B-b-b-b-butterflies in his stomach
gosh that was so uncomfortable I never expected that one day this all would happen
and lastly a question was running inside my head
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Q. Who will be the Top? My brother or My crush?
they both act like bottom whenever they met
but they look like Top
I still can't find the answer
~present timeline~
They still hasn't confessed to each others
of course it's because they are to shy to confess
😒yet the act to intimate
Wiping cream from cheeks
pinching each other
shuffling hair
blah blah blah
they have became bestfriend (who has crush on each other)
it's been a year since that incident
I feel so dumb I wasted my life on a guy who wasn't meant for me
I-i-i-i I still feel butterflies on my stomach
but not because I still like Tom because now I'm a BL lover and I Ship my Brother And Crush so badly
~i wish you two a happy ever after ending ~
