•Emily
‘I don't want to be alone'
'I'm scared to be alone'
I always wondering around the orphanage, lying under the tree while looking at the vast sky. Thinking that maybe someday I'll leave this grey world and see the world.
I always felt that there's something missing, more like the reason for me to go on with life, the reason why I am alive and why do I keep living.
Some of my friends in the orphanage found their new family, it hurts a lot for me, thinking that I'll be alone again.
People in the orphanage always tell me that I should be happy for them, but I can't, it sounds selfish but every time that my friends leave, a part of me doesn't want them to go. I always cry at night while looking at the night sky.
‘Is it right just to let them go?'
‘Is it right just to smile and stay quiet'
But one day another boy comes to the orphanage, he's not the talkative type of kid. Like me, he always lies under the tree until he falls asleep.
At first, I thought that he has some kind of trauma or anything. One time I approach him, I speak a lot to him but he just always smiling and never talks. After that, I always follow and talk to him, he doesn't say any words but I know that he's always listening to any words that I say.
We always lay under the tree and stared at the clouds that passed by or sometimes read a book together in the library. I feel comfortable with him as if I have a brother.
One day I passed by the orphanage office, I heard that there was a couple there who wanted to adopt the boy. Because of what I heard, I immediately ran out of the orphanage, to the tree where we always slept. I just sat under the tree and I just let my tears flow.
That night, I saw him staring at the sky. He didn't notice that I was behind him, he just quietly standing at the window.
"Isn't the sky so beautiful?"
The first time I hear his voice, I called him and stood next to him.
"I surprise that you can talk"
I said to him but he just smiles like he always did.
"Can you turn away from me?"
I did what he says and turned my back from him then he starts talking.
"why were you sad when you first talked to me? you are smiling but your voice... At first I thought you were weird, all of a sudden you talked to me and said some kind of thing, you always follow me everywhere I go and always tells a random things"
I suddenly felt water on my cheek, I tried to cover my mouth so he wouldn't know that I was crying but I couldn't stop my shoulder from trembling.
"I feel annoyed with you at first, but as time goes on, I enjoyed being with you and hearing your stories. Sorry, in all your stories I didn't even give feedback. I hope that someday we see the world together as you always say"
That night I can't stop crying, he continues to look at the sky and started to give feedback on all the stories I told to him before. For the first and last time, we saw the sunrise together, we just stay there looking at the sky and the tree where all of our memories together lies.
"Goodbye"
My last goodbye to my friend...
