hi my name is Aarica Smith my name means alone ruler and its true that am always alone but as for ruler I don't think I am ๐ (๐) now let me tell you why am alone because I never had any real friend when I was alive and the only family I had ha they didn't even cared for me ๐๐(๐) they thought that I am a bad luck so they left me , abondoned me you may be thinking what do I mean by when I was alive ? I mean I am already dead it's just my memories written here for you ๐๐๐ my family abondoned me because I had white hair and red eyes and people says that a person with white hair and red eyes are all witches , funny right? actually the reason I died was because I had blood cancer and when I knew about it I was already at the third stage and I all my life ..... I had gone through too many betrayals but the one that hurts me the most was that of the person whom I loved more then anything else ๐๐๐ for him I was ready to die or to kill and its fine if I was hurt or betrayed I won't hurt anyway or that was what I thought but my heart broke into thousands no no it broke into more then thousand piece you know I thought after sooo many betrayals I won't be hurt anymore but everytime I think about it , it hurts more then before , it was too painful ๐๐๐ even now it is , ๐๐my life was really pathetic right
so I would love to say something i.e life is hard but we have to hold on , maybe someday there will be someone willing to understand us or someone willing to betray us but we should not kill our hopes nor should we place our hope too high because it hurts double when it falls ๐๐๐๐ one more thing sometime we think that people who appear as strong , cold and heartless are bad but in Actual they aren't but some people who appears cheerful and lovely are because no one knows what kind of a person he truly is behind that fake mask , yeah I know truth always hurts sometime we appear as we don't care about anything but in actual we do
that's all I don't want to say anything else ๐๐๐
