Thank you for everything

I didn't scored good mark in my 10th standard. so I transferred to a new school. it wasn't nearer to my home and also it is a residential school. That place is really special to me cause I found my first love or you may say crush there. I was a transfer student so I didn't knew anyone there.

I was allotted to a room where a met a girl Mia. I kinda connected to her in a day. She is a nice girl and also a good student who was in top 10 of our batch. She was from that school so she helped me to get along with other room mates.

The next day I attended the school where I saw him for first time. When the class started the teacher asked for transfer student to introduce them self. I was really nervous.

Though I really suck at study but my co-curricular are good. I joined the drawing club of school he was also in the group. Though we joined the same group our aim was different. I joined cause I'm good at painting and as I want to be a designer it gonna help me in future but he joined cause he suck at drawing. He wanted to be a doctor but he can't even draw a human digestive system.

our first task in club was to decorate school boundary walls. Our art teacher divide our group and said we will have our meeting next weekend to discuss our ideas. initially we were not in same group but a junior girl of his group asked me to exchange with her cause she wanted to have same group as her best friend. I didn't knew he was in the group . Even though we were in same class I never interacted with him. I'm kinda introvert.

after the club meeting our art teacher give each group some area of boundary for drawing. So as you have expected we both are given same area. Our group leader give both of us task to paint the wall with white primer today afternoon so that we can start our work tomorrow.

Our school has a nice scenery. so during break time I seat near the corridor and draw. I was drawing when he came and sit near me. I was surprised cause I was drawing him playing football. He looked at my drawing and said " wow! you really draw well".

I just say thank you. Then he asked me to meet at art room during afternoon class.

"why?" I asked . He told me that we should paint during games class so that it will be ready tomorrow. I said ok then he left to play with his friends.

During afternoon class we took the paint and started to paint wall. I'm quite silent person. After painting for some time he must be bored so he started to talk to me about my experience in the school. Initially I don't want to talk but I thought he must be bored and if he leave I have to do the whole work . So that's how our first conversation started. I didn't realise but at that time we talked about many things about teacher, senior, junior, our aim etc. At that time he told me that he joined club cause he suck at it.

after that we get close not much at least not stranger to each other. After the task we usually talk about our club activity and study.

After our first semester we were given one month holiday. Usually everyone join a cram school. We both joined same cram school and we get more closer. We talked to each other everyday. I started to like him during that time. I started to get more open to make friends.

After holiday when we come to school we talked less cause I don't wanna start any rumours about us. Usually our class given task to arrange for New year function. As a member of Art club we are given task of decorations. We talked a lot during that time. I also performed a dance. He told me that he felt like getting hypnotized by my dance. I blushed a lot.

He was a great student he helped me lot during our exam and I helped him with drawing. it was that time when rumours about us started to spread at girls dorm. Because of the rumours I started to get away from him. I doesn't wanted this rumours to get into our teachers. If they know then they will complain to my parents and I don't want to get my parents into trouble for this small matter. After that even during club activity I changed my group if we get same group. I was really disturbed during our 2nd semester. I can't concentrate on study. My exam results were really bad. His results were better than me but bad as per his standard. He was Top 5 ranker but he was not even in top 15. After results our class teacher was consulting us for my bad results . He was also called by teacher. While entering he told me to wait outside for him. But I didn't. Because if I did it the rumours may again started. During break he came to my desk and asked why I didn't wait for him. I asked him why he asked me to wait. He asked why am I avoiding him. Before I answer him our break ended and he leave for his desk. I wrote in a notebook that there were rumours in dorm that we are couples and I don't wanna trouble him or my parents by this rumours. I gave it to him. After that he also doesn't talk to me or interacted to me.

During our summer holiday we joined same cram school. We doesn't talked durin g that time too. After cram school class he told me to wait for him and don't go away cause he have something important to talk. He asked me why my semester results were bad. I told him I can't concentrate on study because of those rumours and also I can't understand most of the part in our syllabus. I asked him why his results were bad he told me cause he can't concentrate because I wasn't talking to him and he was thinking why I'm behaving like that. I told him sorry for that. He told that he thought because he doesn't know the cause that's why he is disturbed but even after knowing the cause he can't concentrate either. At that time my heart was beating faster. Our conversation was going the way which I doesn't wanted. I can predict from his face what he gonna say next. He looked at me and said " Yes I'm gonna ask you same thing which you are thinking. I wanna talk to you everyday like we used to. I felt my day was bad when I don't talk to you. I don't care about the rumours cause I want to make it true. I like you"

I want to hear those words but that time I felt like being choked. There was butterfly in my stomach but my throat was choked by the thought of what gonna happen in future.

He continued " I want us to be couple. These are my thoughts but I want to know about your view. If you say no I will never talked to you about this. But I still want us to be normal friends. Please don't avoid my like this. You can take as much time you want."

I want to say him that I like him too but I just leave without saying a word.

I told all this and my own feelings to a friend. She is also from our school. She told me that it is better to get complained by doing something rather than not doing it. And don't left anything to regret later. After few days I said yes to him and we told some of friend about this.

After coming to school we talked to each other by notebook. My maths were bad so he volunteered to teach me with teacher's approval. He gave me courage to convince my parents that I want to study designing rather than medical or engineering.

Our story was going smoothly. There were rumours of being couple but I'm not afraid any more because of him.

In our smooth story huddle started when we finish exams. We return home and keep contact through phone. We decided to study in same city. He will study medical and I will study designing. We even decided college. In our love story our carrier was our biggest huddle. The city we decided doesn't has a large scope in designing so my parents consulted my teacher and decided to send me to different city. When I told him that he got angry. I got seat in a reputed college in different city. Before I leave for that city I continuously trying to convince him to have a long distance relationship. I told him that I will return after study. I will have carrier here in our city. Two days before leaving to that city we fought about that. He cut the phone. At night he told me that He want to break up. He said I'm a ambitious girl. He doesn't want to have a long distance relationship. After that I tried to call him msg him but I'm blocked from everything. After getting inside train I also blocked him.

When our friends hear that they were calling and asking. I was tired of their questions. I cut off all my contact with them. I changed my number.

At that time I cried alot. Cause I never expected to break up so soon. Even if break up not through msg. I felt like I lost everything. I thought I was turning into my old self without any friends or confidence. To gather courage I was remembering his old words.

After coming to college I made some friends and had a normal college life. Even though everything was normal one thing always bothered me why did he break up through msg . We were in same city we can had a face to face break or at least on call why it has to be on message.

there was a fair in our city I saw him there. It was already 4 yr that we broke up. I wanted to ask him about that but I doesn't had enough courage.

What I did ? I hide myself and leave that place immediately.

That year our school held a reunion. With hesitation I go there. He was there too. It was awkward but I talked to my friends. After sometime he came to me when I was alone he gave me a paper.

It was written that come to the place where we spent most our time. It was library. I got there. He was standing in front of closed library.

Like old days my heart was beating faster. He asked me why I leave without saying a goodbye to him. I was shocked. His eyes were getting teary while saying that.

He said "Am I that unimportant that you doesn't even say good bye to me?"

My throat was getting jammed. A tear drop flow from my eye. I told him that he broke up with me that night and blocked all my contact. And I thought he doesn't want to have any contact so I blocked him and I was tired of our friends phone calls so I changed my number after a week. And started to cry.

He told me that he drank that night with some friends and left his phone with that friend. His friend was the one who messaged those messages. Next day when he remembered and searched his phone It was inside a water cup and dead. That day evening a friend told him that we broke up. He was shocked and tried to contact me but I didn't picked up any friends phone. After a week when he got new phone he tried to contact me but my number was not available.

After hearing that I cried alot. I always thought I was victim and blamed him for breakup. But that day I realised everything was my mistakes.

I'm the one who broke promises, I'm the one who mistook him. I cried a lot. He hugged me and comforted me.

I asked him when he get to know that his friend messaged me . He said after a month. Actually after that fight he cried while drinking his friend thought it is better to break up so he messaged me those.

He said me sorry for that.

After coming to my sense it was awkward for me to face him. After some silence he asked me do I have any boyfriend now. I said no cause I was afraid to get hurt again. I asked what about you.

He said" obviously not. I'm my best to concentrate on my study and not to get distracted. "

"what can make you distracted? " I asked

"You." He said immediately without thinking.

After that we both were blushing and laughing.

We exchanged our contact number.

We are again together now.

I wanted to thank him for everything. He gave me confidence , courage and most importantly love.