Holding on to you hurts
It was just as time goes by it might stop hurting
But Now I can't even sleep without having nightmares of you
My Breathing isn't normal like before
Just to turn back the clock
Of ever meeting you
The lies I had to told them
About the pain I felt
The truth I haven't said yet
I thought
It was right but it wasn't right
It wasn't love but fear of knowing
I can't be healed and have issues that trigger what happened to me
I had of you
Everynight screaming and breathing heavy
And can't fall to asleep because of the pain
I had I know most will say its not your fault but my
To being dumb to not knowing you were using me
But how could I known that
I didn't even know what love was
Or using someone means
But I was the one who was being used like an object
I am human I have feelings
I am not a robot or a tool to be used at all
I lived with the feelings of not knowing that
You weren't prefect even me but it was that we wasn't made for eachother
