The reason Why I am sad is , I hate myself because my parents deserve better child than me....When they love me I feel like I heaven but when they over love me I can't even breathe, I really feel suffocating I want to said them I am tired of pretending of being good girl ,, please let me be who I am....I am not good as other girls who helps there mom, I never listen you because you made me suffer by giving your over love 💔...Please understand me that I am not feeling good, I am empty inside today but no one can recognize that because I hide it from you...I know when I was kid my father love me but when I became teenage he treats me like an adult girl,,, everyone here wants to control me and this makes our world collide. I want my that father back who loves me from his heart ...I understand the fact that I am not good as I was before and I am trying too but whenever I see your behavior towards me ,, your energy kills my vibe. Please mom and dad stop ...I can do whatever I can but please don't made me suffer ,,,, I am not like other children..
My brother is younger than me but he have a good strength so he can say anything to me.....because I am a girl I have to stay quiet ....if I take action towards it then My parents said he is just a kid but he is now 14 and he have more strength than me.. how can you say a boy a kid who is violent towards a girls...
My other friends go outside with eachother and listen eachother problems, but my parents never allowed me to talk with friends , my friends have their male friends but my parents doesn't allowed to have female friends too..My mother forced me to broke friendship with everyone they said you're not mature enough to go outside then I want to ask why you treat me like an adult inside the house....
(In short my~ My Family think they can only protect me but actually they are hurting me and my Silence killing me from inside...my life is like a spy I always have to do normal things hiding it from my parents )
