we usually hate them
we usually feel jealous of them
sometimes we usually wish to be the only child
we always get annoyed everytime they were around us
we hate them
we feel jealous to them
actually it's shouldn't be called we because I am describing myself how I feel
I always send him away
I never want to play with him
I always avoid him
but I feel empty
I feel empty without him around me
I feel lifeless without him around me
sometimes I can't understand my self
I always send him away from me
and I will feel lonely I hate myself being too complicated to understand
also every time he is happy with other in his side
I feel jealous hopping I can play around him like that
but I have no other option but to watch him laughing from far away
after all I'm a bad sister I should keep being mean to him because he will just feel unusual once I play with him seeing him smile laugh from far away is enough for me
hope he will hate me
