once in the blue moon I was just an only child who is being loved by others everyone can call me perfect because I always got a high grade also I always got everything I want I have received Soo much loved from everyone
I was like a princess who doesn't know what is problem
but the truth is she feels empty inside
one day I see my cousin with her little brother
I was amazed and confused at the same time
I was amazed because she has a cute brother and have someone to play with
and also I was confuse asking my self how does it feel to have a little siblings
when I got home I told my mother and father that I wanted to have a Little siblings
my father ask why
I answered I wanted a playmate
my mother told me I'll try to give you one as long as you'll be a good sister
I was Soo happy that time
one day my father got into a trouble make us live with my grandmother
it was a peaceful life except for I discovered every child or we can say my cousin were too busy with their cell phones
I never knew that thing before
my grandmother buy me one and I got addicted to it
that make my grades fall down
everyone became disappointed with me
and Start to ignore me
2 years later
I was 8 years old when my mother became pregnant
I was Soo happy at that time
day by day I was hugging my mom's stomach
a month later
my brother is ready to goo out in my mom's stomach
my father was in panick that time that forgotten to tell me
when they left
a few minutes I woke up
I search everywhere but I don't see anyone
I keep finding them but I can't find them
at noon
my father came back home and told me that I already got a brother I was Soo happy back then
my mother got discharged and bring my brother home
a month later I started to feel strange
I started to feel jealous
because all their attention love was given by my brother
a years later
I became cold person
all my grades fall down my section fall down
my true smile got changed into a mask
my innocent disapear
my life was ruin
no one care about me anymore even my parents who care a lot for me didn't care about me anymore
and I didn't became a good sister instead I became a ruthless sister who only know is too feel jealous
my life was like a princess who got di throne and became a servant
everytime my brother got sick all of them will get worried
and everytime I got sick no one will care
in the past I sleep peacefully
in the past if I cry while sleeping they will going to get worried
in the past I rarely cry or feel sad
but now my life is a dream if I didn't fell sad
I can't fall asleep if I don't cry
my childish self who always happy and know nothing about sadness left behind
my innocent disapear
the world wake me up from a dream which teach me that not everything will stay the same
sometimes I closed my eyes and imagine how grea the old me is
because I know their is no way I could goo back to the person I used to be
I always looking at the sky wishing I could goo back in the past not to change everything but to feel it again
I miss those happy memories I have but I could do anything but to miss it
everything changed even my self changed
I miss everything and everyone it's included my past self
