This all was started when I was in 8th grade, that year was 2020 when a pandemic came which caused in losing many sunshines of our future and there included some of my close and best friends, after losing them I got a emotional breakdown and was in depression for many months. One day a friend of mine visited me to know about my health because after losing my love one my health became weak, there she tried to make me understand that "don't think on your past and be sad, focus on your present and look forward for your future" and gave me some online groups in WhatsApp so that I wouldn't feel lonely again and help me to move on and make more friends, I accept her request and join the groups...............
Time went by, I moved on, got many friends but never forgot that the friends I lost was the best to be............
now it was already 2021's November, time went too fast right but the pandemic didn't went fast.... I was still active in online groups but one day I got added to a role play group there I did my role but when I entered, I don't know how I got in a fight with a girl... haha~ it was funny, to whom I got fight with and become enemy at the first day, I fall in love with, we became friends but I was afraid of expressing my live to her because we both were girls and I was afraid she was not interested in lesbian or gay couples.... days went very fast when I was with her.....
Now the pandemic was almost over and it was 2022 already, everyone was happy that it was over, they meet there friends,relatives, there important persons...... of course I was happy too but sad as well cuz I know the online chats were just for pandemic for lonely peoples and we can't chat anymore if it was gone that mean she was gone from my life now.....
I DIDN'T EVEN GOT A CHANCE TO TELL HER ABOUT MY FEELINGS
OR AN ANSWER THAT IF SHE HAD LOVED ME
but after some months a mericle happened..... the pandemic got high again so there was a loneliness of lockdown again then I received a message that the online chats will be starting again...I was very happy when I received the message cause my heart was sure that you will be there and it was right, and now I didn't want to lose this opportunity to confess you again....
I LOVE YOU
but I was too late.....
she already got a boyfriend till then, thinking that I am not interested in gay relationships and she already moved on.... yeah she have lover me too but now I don't want to lost her as a friend too so I asked her to only be my friend and she agreed and we are friends now and for me
I maked her believed that I moved on from her, but deep inside "I STILL LOVE YOU" I can't forget my first love
from this I learned that express your feelings to someone you love before it's become too late.....
and if u don't do it, don't cry if you regret
