sometimes I just can't understand why my parents act like understanding me when they're the reason why my tears and smile are fake!
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. please stop fuc..ng pretending... it's very painful from the beginning... just don't make it more worse for me... cause you just want me to be calm.... even there's movement in water after it's calm... I'm suffering when you're comparing me... I'm dying but you can't see it..... just why!!! if you're neighbor's daughter is doing good why don't you just throw me away... i guess it would be more easier for me to live... .
but I'm at fault.... cause I'm silent... because i have to be silent... not like i want to... I'm forced to... I'll be gone when you'll really try to find my voice... just don't pretend that time!!
