I...I WAS 9 YEARS OLD WHEN I LEARNT ABOUT DEPRESSION AND ANXIETY, AS A KID I ALWAYS THOUGHT BEING DEPRESSED IS BEING SAD AND IT'S OKAY IF YOU HAVE DEPRESSION BECAUSE IT'S JUST A SMALL PHASE WHICH IS ABOUT FOR A FEW MINUTES OR EVEN HOURS...BUT I WAS WRONG, I'M 14 NOW AND ALL I THINK ABOUT IS COMMITTING SUICIDE
I EVEN HAD A REASON TO LIVE...EARLIER, BUT NOW I DON'T...TO BE HONEST I'VE LOST EVERYONE, MY PARENTS KEEP LECTURING ME ABOUT HOW I DON'T STUDY, THIS IS THE ONLY 1 THING I HAVE TO DO WHICH IS STUDY BUT YET....I DON'T
I EVEN HAD ONLINE FRIENDS...BUT THEY, THEY'RE SERIOUSLY SO FAKE...I REGRET TALKING TO THEM, MY COUSINS...THEY DON'T LIKE ME THIS IS WHY I CAN'T TALK TO THEM, IF I TELL MY FAMILY THAT I HAVE DEPRESSION THEY'LL THINK I'M JUST DOING THIS FOR ATTENTION, NO MATTER HOW MUCH I TRY TO MAKE OTHERS UNDERSTAND WHAT'S HAPPENING WITH ME...THEY'LL ALWAYS BLAME ME
I'M LOW ON ATTENDANCE WHICH WON'T LET ME GIVE MY FINAL EXAMS, FUNNY RIGHT ?
I FEEL LIKE ENDING MY OWN LIFE BECAUSE I'VE LOST EVERYTHING...THERE ISN'T EVEN ANYTHING ELSE LEFT NOW~
I'VE FAKED EVERYTHING ABOUT MYSELF, I'M OBVIOUSLY NOT A BOY...I DON'T LIKE REVEALING MYSELF BUT TO BE HONEST NOBODY EVEN KNOWS ME HERE SO...SO I THOUGHT ABOUT SHARING ABOUT MYSELF
