"So you are just gonna do what you want?" My bestfriend awkwardly asked this question.
I simply nodded. She slapped me hard on the left cheek. I didn't budge at all. "You are crazy. How could you think like that?" She was angry, I understood that. Everyone would be mad if the one they trust the most betrays them, especially if you are bestfriends.
"I'm sorry." I knew this was gonna happen. So why did I choose to be honest in this situation? She walked past me without even looking back.
The following days were spent by her giving me silent treatments or eye rolls. I didn't want this. I wanted to be her friend again.
So I decided that I was gonna apologise to her properly and make things right between us. But on the morning that I was gonna face her, there was a program in the school.
We assembled on the ground. The principal introduced a guest speaker. The guest speaker acted in a weird way. His walk and attitude was abit girly. He introduced himself and he said he was married with 2 kids. I thought he was so lucky to be with the person he loved. Then the next lines he said took everyone back. "I'm a gay."
A man who was so masculine and had perfect jawline just announced he was a gay. So brave and lucky again. He had found someone who had accepted him for who he was.
He told us about LGBT and stuffs like relationships, the risks and the bright side to it. He made us laugh through some funny acts and made us cry at his hardships to convince the society to accept him.
Then came the dreaded moment, he asked if anyone was a LGBT. Everyone fell into silence, even the teachers and principal moved awkwardly in their seats. I looked at my bestfriend who was sitting 2 rows ahead me, she too was looking back at me.
She shook her head, pleading me not to do it. I closed my eyes and tried to hear what my heart wanted at this moment. To express my feelings and face the consequences or hide them and keep suffering alone?
Before the host could walk away, I stood up from my seat and spoke up. "I am in love with a girl." The host seemed to have something sparked inside him when I confessed that.
"When did you realise that you were a LGBT?" He asked. "Since I meet her 2 years ago. It felt weird being attracted to the same gender but it felt comforting and normal at the same time." I replied without any hesitation. "Her? So is she close to you?" He asked next to which I told him 'very close'.
He asked me is she was present in this gathering right now. I denied it. "You are lying." He commented. I was surprised that he found out but how? He smiled and answered it before I could ask him how he knew. "The way you hesitated to reveal her identity, I knew she was here among us. I have been watching you since the beginning of this program and I know who that person is."
My heart drowned at the bold statement of this guy. I wanted to tell that he dare not say her name. But I was cut short. "I'm an LGBT too."
I watched her, hand raised high, face flushed red. Her eyes hidden behind the thick bangs. The host's attention moved from me to her.
"The girl she is talking about is me. I actually love her too but I wasn't bold enough to accept it myself. I was afraid of what others would say if I told the truth. I wasn't going to let the truth out like this today or ever. However, if I do not stand up today, I wouldn't only be betraying my bestfriend but also myself....
...So I while heartedly confess that I'm in love with girl bestfriend." I was too busy trying to digest her words that I didn't notice the host make his way beside me. "Won't you forgive her?" He asked me and I didn't wait to reply him. I ran directly to her and hugged her tight. "Yes I do."
And that was how this love story that was once mine wasn't only mine anymore. It was ours... all thanks to Mr. John Earl who gave me the courage to stand up for my love~~~
