Sometimes I enjoy the loneliness, its because that time I realize more things, I try to understand my own feelings others feelings.
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At first these realization hurts because it points out the reality, that may be hard to understand and it leads us to suffer.
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In that journey I am alone. I have no one by my side. In the room along with my bed I just let myself to suffer alone the pain.
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.More I feel the pain the more I try to understand the facts. It's ok to be suffer alone. That makes me more bold and makes me more brave
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Not everytime it remains same. Sometimes I just hate the loneliness. I try to runaway from that feeling. But it just crawles towards me and captures me. Thats really scary. At that time I just want to disappear.
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The scariest part is that sometimes I just forgets everything and became numb, in that phase I just want to remain silent doing nothing. That time I just enter into another world. Where I see another dimension of myself.
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Looking into that I don't feel anything . I just wander around here and there looking for something. Sometimes it feels like I am nearer but I can't reach there. .
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May be I am just trying to catch myself . Or I want to stop myself????
