I have always try my best to feel my self happy . But every time she will make me feel bad. She make me feel so disappointment. Every time she make me feel like i don't have any feeling, she make me cry.
In certain day , week or month's she will always try to compare others with me.To me this motional burden is very heavy. i cry often, feel numb or drained, and struggle to concentrate to keep mind clear but I cannot. I never be myself in front of her so may be she will understand me but why she always try to keep me in shadow of other.
when I get lost in something you enjoy or when i get distracts from work you always point it out. I feel good when you point out my mistake but you will start to compare me. I also feel sorrow i may not show in front of you but I feel hurt.
Actually this feeling leave me low, empty, and defeated. You don’t know what caused me unhappiness, so you have no idea how much my feeling get hurt.Feeling sad isn’t at all unusual.
After all, sorrow is a normal human response to disappointment and loss everybody feels that. But aleast i want to have a clear reason behind it and doesn’t seem to improve yourself.
I really want to have somebody when I feeling down. I really wish you were near me sis.i really can not keep going like this. I am not like you who is strong I really want to cry with sound not with flow of tears.
