it's was a peaceful day
I was at our Terris and using my phone reading manga
my mom seat besides me
I look at her then continue to read
my mom look outside seeing many kids playing some teenagers laughing outloud
some people having fun and then my mom look at me with a disappointed look
I ask her why she's looking at me
then she said with disappointed tone why can't I have a Normal child why
I laughed a little and said you have
she said who you? with a confuse expression or your brother?
I look at her and say why what with that expression I am normal
then she said you don't
I asked her why I not normal
then she answered your a weirdo your always in your phone reading those nonsense and then when people approach you your giving them a cold expression make them be scared of you
I answered first of all mom this is not nonsense and second I never give them cold expression
my mom said you do
I answered I'm not that just the way I am ok
my again said but you still scare them
I answered fine I'm not normal then how about my brother
my mom said that man is a weirdo I can't explain but he is with a disappointed tone
then I said then what do you want us to do to be so called Normal person
she said you don't need to do anything I know you won't do it anyway
I answered bingo then I continue reading
then my mom asked Mae why don't you go out and hangout with people make some friends have fun laugh and enjoy your time with them stop looking through your phone and make some friends look at them they were having fun by just looking at them I can see they were happy and your here being lonely with sad tone
I answered why would I I can have fun by myself I don't care if I'm lonely as long as I'm happy that's enough for me
my mom said but
but before she Finnish talking I said friends yes I can have fun with them laugh with them enjoy my time with them I can be happy but those were just temporary those happiness and naughtiness I can have with them are only temporary at the end of the day I will still be alone and even if I surround my self with many people in the end I'm still lonely Soo I would rather be alone all day and enjoy my time by myself than being with them then I look at my mom with a smile and said I have learned my lesson mom
my mom was speechless she hug me
and I said I use to be like and hangout with them too but obviously I was the only one who care about them I remember everything about them their birthdays dreams and favorite but non of them knows mine that's why I distance my self from them mom I broke the hug and smile to her and get up then I goo to my room
at that time my mom still looking outside while Im in my way to my room I didn't see her expression but I can feel she is sad because of what I said I did say to much to her I feel sorry because I tell her what I've been through but that was fine after all she is my mother she deserves to know it
I may not have a best friend but I have a mom who is ready to listen to me
I'm lucky to have family like them
