I was on my way home from work and suddenly a cat appeared in front of me It was so cute that I couldn’t ignored it.
I look at her face and it was so painful, it was full of scars and blood, I couldn’t hold myself and took her with me, at the first time I had no attention to take her, but when I looked at her closely, I realized that I must take her with me, I talked to her even though I knew she would never understand my words.
“ are you hungry, do you want me to take you home with me “ she wasn’t able to make any sound, so I took her, I treated all her scars, I brought for her a cat bed and a lot of cats toys.
It was my first cat, so it was my first love (pets love) so I treat her like a human, sometimes when I look at her face I feel like She understands me. She was so loyal and protective, one day I locked out in my room and the door wasn’t able to open, I was screaming for help, suddenly I heard her voice screaming in the same time with me, I look Down the door to see her scream from the other side. It was my first time expressing this feeling, the feeling of someone is willing to protect or help me.
Day by day she becomes like a shining star in my life, furthermore we were like a mother daughter, I loved her so much. I think because I’m a psycho all here moves were like a expression of love to, even though it’s just a natural thing like sleeping beside me or coming to me asking for food. Every move to me was something extraordinary.
One day she get pregnant and give birth to her first babies, at the first everything was fine, and because I was studying in another city I wasn’t able to be by her side, after I finished my exams, I planned on going back to my city, actually In the past I had no attention to go back to my home, I always stay in the dorm, even in vacation time. But this time wasn’t like the old time, this time I had someone waiting for me to come back. Basically all my day without blagg were so boring, but that day was a dreary day even though I was going to see her, I felt something wrong. It was the first time I went back home so easily, when I entered the house I feel it was so empty.
“ mum I’m home…(why no one reply to me) mum where are you ‘’
‘I’m her, it’s been a long time since I last saw you, how was your daily life there?’
“ it wasn’t that bad ‘’ wait for a second I felt something weird about mum, it was like she is hiding something from me, no it’s impossible no it’s can’t be…..
‘’ mum where is blagg I didn’t see her like usual?!!! ‘’ my mom eyes were all covered by tears
‘’ mum (sob) ‘’ she looked at me and tilted her head ‘’ she is in your room, go see her.’’ I hurry to my room and saw her in a misery, here chest becomes like a stone, she was looking at me and her eyes were completely dead, She was shivering like she was cold, she wasn’t able to move she was just looking at me like she was saying goodbye to me.
I couldn’t put down my eyes from her, seeing her dying in front of me was the worst feeling I ever felt in my whole life, even though in the past I tried to commit suicide it wasn’t as scary as seeing my beloved die in front of me. I asked my mother what happened, she said
‘’ I don’t know either, three days ago I couldn’t found her when I went to your room, I found her laying in the bed and she was so tired, I took her to the Veterinarian but he said it was too late because she was dying, he says she won't live until the evening. I wanted to tell you about it but you were talking exams, I didn’t want to bother you. ‘’
My mom leaves the room, I sit beside her and look at her face, it was so skinny and pole. Her eyes were very dark and full of tears, I think she was in pain. I couldn’t do anything but crying and begging her to survive.
‘’ please don’t fall apart I can’t face your broken eyes, I’m sorry for not being there for you, I’m sorry for not being able to treat you, please forgive me, please forgive me, I'm so sorry ‘’
After all what I said , she lay her head in bed. And in peace, I think she was waiting all those three days just for me to come home and meet her for the last time.
After writing this story I faced the same situation, my only cat also dead and all these words come out from my mouth like the story repeated itself 💐💐
