we always had a problem with financial at home. it's annoying. My father who is as lazy as pig, never do anything himself but only rely on his wife or his children or his only son future. It's frustrating. He is the damp father I had. I feel like dying to stay at home because of daily financial problems. They always fight in front of us and also quarrel with us when we stop them. but night they become lovey dovey... it's annoying. I feel like hell at home. we are us a child... year... we haven't even graduate... and my little brother and sister.. they are not even pass 10 grade. How can we help them. They always vaint their anger at us... don't we a heart or what??.. don't we feel hurt when they threaten you we life. They said we aren't obedient. They said we didn't listen to them. But what we do wrong. I have done everything to please them. Inorder to concentrate in study, I never went outside from the house not even at our neighbour, I didn't visit them. I am always obedient and have always listen to them. in order not to disappoint them on me.. I Never go out to play outside, or roam around. I never got in a relationship nor never allowed others to pursue me. Even whenever they had a bad terms with some people I didn't get in touch with even though they talk to me. I have suffer so much humiliation from others just because I am poor but I never blame them. I know they had done this for my own good. But I just hate it when they threaten with their life to us. I hate it. I not afraid of poor nor people discrimination but afraid of losing them. I can take any blame but can't take when my behave like that. it's hurt... like hell God.. it's damp hurt. we can't say anything about this.. only swallow inside our heart.
