At first glance i thought you were just a good looking person but at the second time that I looked at your face i just suddenly felt this butterfly in my stomach i thought i was just hungry at first but no,
that is the moment that i knew that i have already fallen for you but of course i was confused at first if do I really like you not but i had given up thinking about it and i continued everything as if nothing happened... And the sitting arangement in our class had begun and im very nervous at first because sitting arangement was not my favorite thing to do in school, and my name was called by our adviser telling me in which isle do i sit and after that a guy's name was called and unexpectedly you stand up and going right by my side and that's when i figured out your name and at the same time im also very happy and nervous at the same time because you were my sitmate I don't know if it's destiny or what maybe im just thinking nonsense but your name was pretty long but it sounds beautiful.
Warnings before you continue: it will be not good as you expected, sorry
It was awkward at first since we don't know each other yet and it's also annoying me that you know the guy that is sitting on my other side so it gotten more awkward for me because the two of you are talking while me being so quiet because im an introvert, I don't quite remember of how much time did it get to us talk each other but i know for sure that it took a while because we're so different compare to each other, you're so smart while me literally a dumb stupid and a fool ugly turtle but as time goes by we got more closer and the more we get closer the more my feelings get deeper to you...
And since we're so close especially with our two other seatmate we've already gotten used with each other even though im the only stupid among the four of us but im thankful that i get to meet a person like them...
I still remember that they when i teased you almost like everyday until you got mad at me hahaha literally sulking on your desk 😂 i don't know how much you made me happy everyday that's why im not getting tired going to school everyday because you're there, but i was also afraid if ever that time will come, the time that will you and i be on the same class again next year?, will you and i are sitmate again next year? I'm really scared and terrified by just thinking about it but i kept praying and hoping that we will be on the same class again it doesn't matter if we're no longer sitmates as long as were together in the same class until we graduate.
And there's also a time that im hoping that will not happen until one day...I asked him if he likes someone in this class and he replied "yes i like someone" and i feel like my world paused fo a moment when i heard that he likes someone,but since my curiosity is on another level i tried asking him if "who is it i will not tell anyone i will keep it a secret for you "
and he said the name of the person that he likes and i was not confused at all thinking "why of all woman, why her" because that girl was my classmate last year and we're really close and she's very pretty and smart at the same time, and i was like "ohhh no wonder you like her, were also on the same class last year that why i know her really well" and he replied "please don't tell this to anyone okay" and i replied "of course were best friend i will keep it a secret promise" and a word just suddenly comes out in my mouth saying "do you want me to help you out with her" I don't know what was I thinking maybe because i like him even though he said no i still did something to help him with her but thankfully when i asked her about him she said that she doesn't like him at all so im really happy when i heard that coming from her (≧▽≦) even though im not sure if it's true or not...
And months and months have passed and our last day as classmates is here and i can no longer remember what happened on our last day together and I'm sorry about that, everyone༎ຶ‿༎ຶ
And another school year had begun and as i expected were not on the same class anymore and during that year without him by my side i feel sad but of course my feelings fo him still remains there was a time (same year) i saw him but i didn't talk to him but i tried to get his attention and unexpectedly he didn't saw me me even though i was right in front of him and at that time i was thinking had he already forgotten about me or is he ignoring me🙂
but of course i still liked him even after that day
and after that year 2 years have passed and we're still not on the same class but my feelings for him still haven't faded but through that 3 years of me liking him whenever i saw him im always trying to find a way to looked at him without being too obvious and until now (same year 3 yrs ago) my self is still not awake to the reality that he no longer remembers me and the chance of me being with the same class with him again is on 0%😶
And the time has come that i got the confidence to message him through messenger and he replied and at that moment it felt so unreal that im talking to him again and i asked him which school will he go next year and he said he doesn't know yet and he returned the question to me and i told him in which school i will go next year and he just suddenly said this to me "wherever school you will go to i will also go there so that i can be with you"
and i was like😲 i felt shocked and so happy at the same time because it was his first time saying that to me (and i was still blind at that time...)and after that a day have passed and i messaged him first again and and he replied in an unexpected way
a can no long remember the words but he said it with madness a don't know why, did i do something wrong to him? like i remember asking him "why are you mad at me?!" and i remember him replying "stop acting as if you did something right!" and i was so shocked and confused at the same time and i also felt madness at that moment so i just stopped messaging him so that it will not lead us in a trouble and after that i just suddenly woked up and i saw the reality that i should stopped liking him but of course it was not that easy to forget my feelings for him so i kept myself distracted i kept myself studying and made more friends in my new class until i graduated and of course i didn't graduate that peacefully i felt anxiousness because what if i will met him on that day especially we need to go on stage and get our diploma while announcing our name and class so what if he recognized me or what if he still hold grudge on me but thankfully nothing unnecessary happened (-_-;)
and that day ended pretty well and of course i was sad because my day in this school and my day with my classmates has come to an end.
And 2 months have passed, another school year had begun but in different school with different people and of course you're thinking he's already out in this story no! of course not haha(ー_ー゛)
we went on the same school obviously 😒
and of course i didn't met him that easily but of course i met him in an unnecessary way, i accidentally bumped into him! ༼;´༎ຶ ༎ຶ༽ but thankfully our eyes didn't met😏 and nothing happened after that....hah just kidding i began stalking him in his fb account 😅
and i didn't expect that stalking his fb account will lead me more dipper in reality...
can you guess how he have changed well he became a chick boy haha did you get what im saying 😐 uhmm well in other words he now has a lot of ex's └|∵|┐and until then i started regretting everything, i regretted liking him being to obsessed with him (＾3＾) well not really obsessed but whatever but after that i learned a lot in life look at me now hating everything about love swearing to herself that she will not fall again to anyone =_=
but after all of that i already fell for someone like come on like what the heck i didn't expect this( ⚈̥̥̥̥̥́⌢⚈̥̥̥̥̥̀) the end.....
Im really sorry if my writing is trash please understand me I'm not a pro when it comes to things like this and my apologies for my bad grammars im still young please forgive me(ᗒᗩᗕ)
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I was on my third grade when i experience this but you must be thinking "oh this is just a puppy love"
but no this is a moment of my life the i will never forget, even though im not sure if anyone will read this but please this is my first time posting something on this app and for those who will read this thank you and i hope the you will find yourself a man or a woman that will truly love you and for those people that is on a one sided love please learn how to love yourself first before that person
my moto: learn how to love yourself first before someone else◉‿◉
