I stood, in front of the school, watching the cars go by. I closed my eyes and listened to the purr of the red mustang that just pulled up and tried to clear my cluttered head. I remembered his eyes on me while I was dancing. He hadn't taken his eyes off me. I had smiled to myself, happy to finally get noticed. But that feeling was long gone now.
I heard a noise behind me. I turned around slowly, facing the direction of the sounds. I felt like someone had punched me in the stomach. Standing centimetres apart was Kale and Madison. I looked at their faces, eyes closed and lips moving in sync.
I could feel the cold sting of the tears on my cheeks. Holding a hand over my mouth to keep from gasping, I ran. In no direction at first, I just wanted to get away. I ran out of the school campus and down the hill, towards the park. I didn't notice the sound of feet behind me until someone tackled me to the ground.
I started to scream when I looked up at the face of in the attacker. Kale held my hand firmly against the ground and shushed me. I was paralyzed for a second. Out of frustration, more tears poured from my eyes. I didn't want to look at him, to see his beautiful crystal blue eyes looking at me. I could see the pity in his eyes. I didn't want his pity, I didn't want to know that he thought of me as a little girl with a silly crush. I struggled beneath him.
"Carmen, stop. I know you saw me with Madison. It's not what you think," Hunter said speedily.
"Not what I think it is? What else would it be?" I managed to say through the stream of tears now soaking through my shirt. Damn white shirt.
" Really. She came up to me, asking me if we could get back together. I was about to tell her no, but she kissed me before I could say anything. I pushed her away and then I saw you running, and I knew I wouldn't be able to stop you, so I tackled you, and well, here we are." Hunter said out of breath.
I thought for a moment. I wanted to forget he existed. I wasn't ready to think logically. I wanted someone to blame everything on. I didn't want to accept the fact that his words were true. I knew what I had to do.
" Kale, no matter how I love you, or how much you love me, we'll never be able to be together. I'm broken. My home life is hell, so I have no where I can go to calm down. Every morning, I wake up and think 'Great; another day of torture. I'm just glad Kale doesn't know how I feel about him, or I would have whole other problem on my list. I've lost the ability to love, Kale. No matter how hard I try to maintain a relationship, it never worked out. I don't want us to start something, while I know full well that I'll just end in pain. I don't want to make anyone hurt like that. I wouldn't be able to handle knowing that I broke someone's heart." I said.
Kale was silent for a moment. I thought maybe couldn't think of anything to say, because I had pretty much summed it up. I was wrong. He pressed his lips to mine. I had thought about his lips many times before, but I had never been able to capture it, because I had never been kissed before. they were so unbelievably soft, and gentle. I could feel the heat pulsing through the lips and I swear my heartbeat was loud enough to hear a mile away.
A single tear rolled down my face. I knew this would be goodbye. My first and last kiss with him. I tried to make it last, but all that came to me was an emptiness in my chest. I felt like someone had torn out my heart. It seemed to last for eons, but it finally ended. He pulled away and looked at my face. I tried to determine his expression, but there was nothing to see. His face was blank. He got off me and stood up, holding his hand out to me. I took it, and let him pull me up.
I made no move to touch him, for every touch would be like drops of lemon juice to an open wound later. I simply looked him in the eyes. He looked back at me. All was silent for a while before turned around and started walking. I didn't look back at him until I walked a fair distance. I turned around and looked back to find him standing in the exact same spot, unmoving. The tears started pouring down my face long before I realised they were there.
