"Sadness", this word pierce me deeply at night when everyone... around me go to... sleep and that exact moment, I cannot help but cry!...
Yeah, lol.
I cry!
My tears fall... down.
My...heart aches.
Question is, "why?", "why?"..."why?"
Answer is, "the memories of my past surround my mind. The memories of my real life...I feel suffocated. It just feels like my chest has been pressed hard, so... I'm feeling difficulty in breathing."
What is "that past?"
That is something...I really don't wanna talk about.
I just wanna forget it, like it never even happened.
In the eyes of people, "I'm strong, intelligent, confident, cute, etc."
The word "strong", I think even if it "suits" me?
If I was strong, why...why would I be crying at night when no one could see me cry?
If...I was strong, why would I be acting tough in front of others so they can't see my weak side?
But people say, "I'm strong enough to bear all this because no one... else can, that's why Allah chose me for this test "because" I'm strong enough."
No matter what, I believe Allah.
I believe HIS words.
Inshallah, I'm going to win.
Path was difficult...
So much difficult!!!
But I know, my destination will be so much beautiful that it'll be worth the pain I suffered from.
Yeah, it'll be!
I know my Allah!
HE never left me alone and won't leave me alone ever too.
HE can never abandon HIS people!
Yeah, never!!!
