I know, he never can imagine even in his dream that how much the girl he has been seeing from childhood...loves him!!
I did so much efforts to confess him but always got failed. Sometimes I couldn't tell him my feeling because of wrong time, sometimes I told but because of the fear of messing up the things I took back my words and sometimes I even embarrassed myself in front of him.
Everytime I tried to tell him my feelings, the time and situation never been on my side. An untold love for him, which I'm carried for more than 15 years.
There is no possible way left which I didn't ever tried to confess him my love. A 15 years old love, which I tried to give up many times also. But the reason is him.
He is the only reason that I'm not being anyone's life. Because I already devoted my love to him. I don't know if he knows or not. But I'm sure when he knows, he'll feel himself the luckiest one in the world for being loved by someone like this.
Like they say, this kind of love is the one...true love. I'm not concern if it really is true love. I loved him for years without the slightest hope of getting him for myself. I always got happy by watching him from far away. Feel like that will be enough for me to spend a year comfortably.
I don't have any picture of him because I don't need it. His memories are the best pictures for me. I don't need any device to kept his face as a picture. The picture of his real face...is in my heart as the best picture I ever had.
Whenever he had cold, I wished his cold got him to me. Whenever he got sick, I wished I was the one who got sick instead of him. Whenever he got failed, I wished I could get his position of failure. He was like a precious treasure to me which I got from the destiny ever. Like, I will not share his pain instead I'll bear his pain.
I guessed, he was my first love, my childhood silly love which will gonna be forgotten with time passes. I was wrong. He is the one I ever love in my life. My love has been devoted to him for years and it'll be devoted for him in the future.
May be our ways will gonna split, may be he will gonna be somebody's life someday, but no one can take away the love I kept inside for him. My devoted love will always gonna be devoted only for him.
Even though our destiny won't allow us to be know each other's heart, but still you'll always be in my heart till the very end of the life.Because this is my devoted love for you...!!
