I took a pen out and some paper and with tears in my eyes I could see everything from up here tonight I died. tonight my heart was to heavy to keep going.
To my dear mother who hold my hand in my darkest time but now to far to do so again. I can see the cars from all the way up here they look like little ants. I still remember the day that I started my first period and my sister was furious because I had painted her white bed to red now. My brother who I once told his crush that he had no dick I could still remember his red face. The time I got in top of the car while my older sister drove and the cops made her pull over. Her eyes told me to run so that day I slept in my mother's room. To my dear father who although I couldn't phiscally touch his warm words always stayed in my heart. Please don't cry please don't feel bad for me I know I will probably won't go to heaven to rest. But do remember all our times together as a family when the car broke down while going to vacation and we stayed in a weird motel for three days. I could still remember the two smallest rasiclas of the house still fighting over a dumb candy. We can't forget the wedding I threw a plate at my sister's husband because he was and still is a jerk then that started a whole water balloon fight. I also remember the day I showed you all my first boyfriend mom wanted to kick me out the house but instead put me to read the Bible and remember it by heart. After a few months I found out that he had cheated on me and all four of my brothers and sisters came out to find him while mom stayed. with me at home and hugged me. soon after dad found out and I don't know how he sent someone to break his dick lucky the police didn't get involved. Tonight the moon is full so let me tell you all who was the one who really ate that last cupcake that took mom one month to buy it was me am sry but the temptations won over me. remember this I love you'll and you are my everything but life just was to hard have a great life remember to live it at the fullest.
then as I wrote those last words I put a rock on top of it then walked closer to the Edge the cold wind blew as the snow fell like dancing stars in the night the with one step I felt my body going down then closing my eyes never to open them
