"Love is Blind"
I heard this saying a lot but I thought it was just a saying until I found myself in a web of a mess...
*The Red flag people say...
the short talk, you getting tired frequently, getting angry more often only to say you were kidding, the late reply, not giving enough time to us.......
maybe all these were a lot...for a long distances relationship...for which we were already doing our utmost to keep it Sweet and pure... nourishing it with all our patients and understanding without making issues of small things...I cherished this relationship between us...US...it was beautiful.
He told me he misses me I thought "I miss you a lot as well" and then I reply I am missing you as well...until everything was already falling downhill...He thought or believe that I should understand him...Understand him that he misses me so much that he was looking for someone else behind my back...But what about that heart of mine that was crumbling in each word of him when he was reciting about Her...
LOVE...
he said she loves him as much as I do...I was wondering when he measured my love for him...was it measurable? Something was crumbling inside me just from hearing all these from him...I felt like it should be a big fat lie but his stern voice tell otherwise...
I was reminded of a moment when my friend once asked if I could be hers and I replied "No, I am already in a committed relationship" with all my sassiness...It was a joke but I meant it...each word of it...
Nobody knows how much I wished I could rewind the time...maybe just to strictly warn you that Cheating is not an option and you should never do it...
or
if not maybe up to the time when you asked for a breakup which you didn't mean, maybe to know if you were seeing someone else at that moment...
I don't realize where exactly it's when wrong.,.
maybe I just don't wanna know...
eventually who hurt whom more...
nobody realized...
you hurt me yet you act like you were more hurt...
Yet, even after everything that happens between us, I found myself worrying about your doing and praying that you may not choose the wrong path in our mess...
Some friends said I was strong enough and they would have been the worst if they were in my place but who knows how much I may be hurt inside and say jokes.....the silent tears of his name...their joke means no harm but it still sting...
Eventually, I am doing fine...
"Some chapters are eventually meant to end so a new chapter may be open to you"
