I don't know what I've been processing in my pea sized brain, but the sudden idea to share my life story about me and my first (serious) crush appeared . .
🌟 then let's get it ✨
so I first met him on my first day of secondary (mind you, I'm not going to share his actual name but we'll call him Sam) and the whole day was
going g r e a t .
only thing? when we were finally released from our form classes I couldn't find my primary school friend and sister 🥲 the only girls from our primary were just the three of us - other eight are boys
so I did what the most cleverest person could do in a lonely, lost situation; sit by a wall and wait.
clever, am I right?? 🏃
anyways it was a pretty hot day and the sun was facing us behind the roof/wall. all around me I saw the most weirdest people that I'd be with for the next few miserable years of my LIFE. I even saw new year sevens like me make friends with
others 😔
I sat with my bag on my side and waited just like that. who would come to the suffering need of a weird year seven who couldn't even look up at anyone? 💀 but . .
Sam did 😔. I saw two black shoes approach me and an ugly grunt as he sat beside me. just so you know, I had my right hand out on my side and he had his hand out too, so our bodies and hand were a few centimetres apart 🗿 but my dumb, dumb self moved my hand away and wrapped my arms around my legs. I'm gonna slap my old self.
I'm going to skip giving detail to the part that the first thing he told me was that he saw the inside of my skirt just before I raised my legs (I had only shorts on - no stockings. curse my mum for forcing me to wear a skirt for once). he even laughed at my reaction 😭 I'm shatting refrigerators
after that trash, he held his hand out, "Hi, my name's Sam"
of course I had to shake it, "I'm ###" 🌝
he then proceeded to tell me he was fully Polish, he lives with his dad most of the time but sometimes stays over with his mum because they were divorced, he has an older sister is a kpop stan, the video games he's into, his favourite subjects and sports and THEN, what subject he had next.
obviously he let me speak between those about myself in the same subject matter. talk about a big mouth 😰 who'd tell a complete stranger you've just met a few minutes ago your life story??
I know you guys wouldn't . . right 🤠
so when we were talking about what our next classes were, we checked out planners and we had the same class 😄 french 🙂
he said he never met a filipino before and said he's glad it was someone as pretty as me 🤔 mind you, I'm one of those whitewashed filipino girls, unlike my sister
we decided to get up and he held my bag f o r me guys . .
he offered to show me his year eight friends from his primary school and his year seven ones too, but I didn't want to spend the rest of my freedom with a bunch of cringies (I'm sorry in advance, they were cringies when I met them later, but so am I 😔)
I saw my friends in the distance so I walked over to them. we were practically screaming about how our first few hours went, what we did with our form, who was in our classes and if we made any new friends. but they all went quiet when I mentioned a BOY name 🤌
" oh MA GAHD who's 'Sam' 😨"
" do you already have a boyfriend 😫"
" no wayy 😳"
anyways, let's skip two or three weeks after that when he asked for my number. YEAH guys . my darn
n u m b e r
we had PE last period and we met up outside near the changing rooms (don't fret y'all, I said NEAR).
so Sam has this thing with him when he'd sneak up and try to scare me, which was always successful
we walked together to the gates/exit and what was strange, was that by the time we walked out and crossed the road, I realised he was going to opposite way of where he was supposed to be heading (and no, I do NOT stalk the poor guy. I'm not as weird as all of you ಥ‿ಥ )
I asked him why and he said "um . . I was kind of thinking; do you want number? so like we can talk together there too?"
obvs 🙄 .
I said yeah, duh, so we dropped our PE bags to the side and I sat on mine. he knelt down and took his phone out in the most attractive way possible. I passed him a pen and a sticky note and watched him scribble his number down.
when he finished folding the note he passed me back the pen too - his fingers touched mine guys. I ascended.
both of us stood and he carried my PE bag while my fat arse took longer to stand and grab my school bag. then we went to cross another road and explained that he could go his normal way after we crossed.
but after we laughed, joked, talked together after crossing, we stayed in a spot where we'd separate for about five minutes. wow 🦆
when we finally said bye and he passed my bag back to me (yes, he carried my big, heavy bag over for me you guys), I noticed my friends hiding near the gates and ran towards me. don't run across the road like these dumplings, kids 😮💨
and when I told you they were the most loudest, giggliest and most annoying they could've been there . .
even when I turned to see Sam, he was also looking over and laughing at them as they bombarded me with questions 😶
skipping about a month later, I met this girl (let's name her Roz) and we found that we were more alike than we thought. same anime fandoms, k-pop addicts (I was also into FNaF at the time, dont judge 🤓) and bonded over how annoying out sisters are. crazy enough, she was half Polish 🤸
so one of my friends brought in glass rings out of bottles from Bangladesh and gave both of us one. we both wore the same colour on the finger you'd put your wedding ring on, so ever since then we joked about being 'married' and practically held hands everywhere.
on another day where I had french again, I 'met up' (was jumpscared) by Sam again and we agreed that we should together that day. jeez 🤛
he said that no one would find us if we stayed near the information center/library, so we could get space and time together (ooh 🥸)
we walked around back and forth the area and laughed together, shared his snacks (he always shares his food with me - that one time he fed me a white chocolate chip cookie), and even teased eachother (y'know those stuff about height, sets/classes and even roasting eachother).
he even took my bottle and expected me to reach up to grab it [which I did (you guys know that tactic where you grab their shoulder, shirt or hand and try your hardest to get want you want 🤐) ]
some older kids walked past, took one look at us and I heard comments about "aw, those two look cute" "aren't they only year sevens? they're nice though" "ah, what a young couple ###"
I even had to pause on our antics when someone j knew was passing by, for example when we were comparing heights, Sam got his whole darn body against mine and my face was a mere five cm away from him. by the way, he was about eleven cm taller than me. fighting, crying, bleeding, losing.
even Roz found us messing about and grabbed me away "who are you 👹"
she was even more mad when she found out was the same guy who knocked books and plastic bottles on my head, scared me half to death whenever I was finally alone and the one who took time away from her to hang out with me. plus, outraged he's another Polish person 🚶
"I'm the only Polish person relevant in her life" she practically screamed 💀 even Sam defended himself and said "Well, I was the f i r s t
Polish person in ###'s life" . . (which was a valid point)
Roz eventually went away and warned him not to try anything with me . . help
after she left he muttered something about Roz being 'crazy', 'weird' and all that so of course I had to explain everything for him.
"you're MY first filipino and girl friend in MY life anyway" . . I'm about the bl o w .
you know what's even crazier? he admitted that his dad was very enthusiastic in him getting himself a GIRLFRIEND (even at his age) so he told his dad that I was his girlfriend last minute. I know. bonkers.
he said he mentioned about how pretty (not me), kind (I'm a walking menace) and clever (my brain's the size of a micro organism) I am 🙃
we were so emersed in our antics that we didn't even notice the bell go and headed for class about two mins later than everyone else
even my friend's crush looked at us rushing down the hallway after Sam greeted him and told me
"ooh! gone on a date with Sam, huh?"
I nearly lost Sam when pausing after that statement 🗿
our classmates in class were even more suspicious because we entered class at the same time and after he opened the door for me and let me in first 😵💫 I'm done for
so from then on, I've been getting comments about me and Sam everytime he walks past or says hi, my friends have been doing everything in their power to get us together 🐔 even his friends are starting to ship us
some kids in my RE class even asked about us when he walked by, patted my shoulder and said hi when we were waiting to be let into class ( ⚈̥̥̥̥̥́⌢⚈̥̥̥̥̥̀)
me and Sam would find random times to talk with eachother; in the line, walking to/out of class, outside our school's PE department, randomly outside the school grounds or even DURING class.
the thing is, we don't sit next to eachother during classes because this one kid (let's give him the name Dillon) comes before me in the register. outrageous.
we either get Dillon to communicate for each of us or just lean over to see eachother and talk. poor Dillon boy ಥ‿ಥ
sometimes Sam would need a ruler, pen or work to copy because he's always behind and no one would offer to help, so I'd end up coming to his aid
even in the one time I passed him my worksheet to copy in geography, he took ages to copy it so when Miss called out the answer big, crooked 'MM (miLiMeterS)' was scribbled on my sheet and handed back to me a few minutes later
I was gonna pass out not because of why he did it, but how discombobulated his handwriting was
(･ัω･ั)
plus, Roz was getting more 'protective' over me whenever we saw him, so I always prayed for his health.
whenever we'd find some time for ourselves, Sam would mention how annoyed he is when Roz in particular was around. sheesh
she's get mad when I'd mention if we (video) called, texted or if he's been with me too. it's not looking good for me 🥸 plus, my friends have practically been shipping me with every boy on the face of the earth that I'd speak to and mention it in front of Sam
so I'm screwed for life.
pray for me y'all
.
that's the end of all that rubbish. I'm sure at least someone out there would understand my
pain💃
have a good one y'all ✨
