a family. be grateful for having one. that's what they say.....
I am Janice . being the middle and the least favourite child, life wasn't easy for me.
I love my family, but sometimes I wonder do they hate me ??
or am I the reason??
Remember mom, you scolded me cause I broke your mug by accident. I still remember how badly I cried and apologized but that didn't matter to you.
why, did that piece of glass mattered more to you than me???
I always felt left out.
my older sister Jenna was beautiful and smart.
my younger brother was handsome and intelligent and here I was, a idiot with no beauty.
having no friends, no social life I was lonely.
all by myself.
did they saw that? no.
dark circles like panda and pale skin like a piece of paper. did they ever noticed it? no, never.
having hundreds of arguments. why? cause I don't socialized? if only they knew that it's no longer those times that all the kids in the classroom are your friends.
but now it's filled with two faced people who smile at you and later talk shit about you.
it's no longer those times where you talk openly and no body will talk badly about you.
I loved art but you forced me to take medical.
I loved being alone, l loved that feeling when I am alone, I realized how lonely I was and how my life was filled with darkness.
at mother's Day, you couldn't make it, at my graduation you couldn't make it.
do you know how sad I was when I saw everyone with their family and how I was completely alone.
you never noticed all the A's I get, but you only noticed that one F I got.
why!!
you couldn't even remember my birthday while you threw a massive party for Jake ( my younger brother).
was I not important to you??
or was I not good enough for you??
after growing up, Jenna left you for her modelling career and Jake went abroad for further studies, the ones you loved dearly.
for years the didn't contacted you
I was the one who took care of you all this time
I was the one to take you to hospital when needed.
I did everything for you, yet I only got nothing.
just cause I don't cry doesn't mean I am not sad.
just cause I smile doesn't mean I am happy.
just cause I bear everything doesn't mean I am not bothered.
I have feeling too. I am a human too.
not a robot.
but even so I still love you all.
cause you're the only ones I have.
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