Hello everyone!
I'm the other one
you might also know me as a second lead, if you watch dramas or have read any comics.
I am the person who loves to run after the girl I love, who loves run after the boy she love.
I have been in love with my best friend since I was fourteen year old.
I first saw her in a science fair, then later on she transferred to my school.
It was really difficult for me to go and talk to her. She was a queen bee and I was a nerd.
But luck was in my favor I guess, I got partnered with her in a computer project.
Although she was a queen bee but she wasn't arrogant, she was kind.
she has big brown eyes, pale skin, pointed nose, plump lips and big lashes. You can say used all his concentrate when he was creating her. she is perfection.
I wonder if she has ever observed me like this.
She use to tell me everything but their are many things I haven't told her.
she use to cry on my shoulder but I have never cried on hers
I have tried many times telling her that she's not just my friend, she's more than that but I fear of losing her made me a perfect coward.
I always wonder how do people move on from one person to another. I can't f****ng forgot the moment I first saw. It was exactly how poets define.
when people say you fall in love, I believe they say it right.
people do fall in love, because once you fall it's hard for you to get up.
I have seen her boyfriend come and go in her life but never once that person was me because I wouldn't dare to leave her. she's perfectly awesome.
my other friends has told me many times that she using me, I should have some self-respect but love is not about self-respect or ego's.
In love you gave importance to someone else that you lose you own value in your life.
I always wonder where have I lack, why I am not her boyfriend but these looser looking faces are.
I thought maybe it's about timing, that I have missed mine and now I have no chance.
however even if I have proposed her on the right she might have rejected me.
Even so there is one thing that I can guaranteed that no one, I repeat no one can ever lover her like I do.
Even though my love is one sided but it's pure, it's selfless and it's all mine.
my life has took all my patience so yesterday I decided to told her everything, I went to her apartment.
I needed some encouragement so I drank before I started.
I told her that I'm leaving the city, she was sad and asked me why.
I told her about my new job.
I told her what I have been feeling all this while, she was shocked but she didn't replied.
I thought she needed some time so I took my leave.
firstly I thought I have done a great mistake, I shouldn't have told her. Now things would get complicated between us.
But for once, for once in my life I wanna be selfish. I wanna be selfish for myself. I wanna be loved, I wanna be cherished, I wanna get some care.
I'm tired of being a giver and never to receive anything. I was so indulged in giving that I forgot what I deserve.
when they say every relationship is give and take, they are right. you give as much as you take.
I wanted her to take her time and make her decision, if she rejected me and never wanted to talk to me, I will respect that.
So, here I am waiting for her since morning that she will come and see me off but she didn't came.
I thought maybe she wanted to see my last time just to respect our friendship yet there is not sign of her
As I made my way towards my plane I questioned myself.
SHE WAS MY EVERYTHING, MY BEST FRIEND BUT WAS I ANYTHING TO HER?
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Hello friends,
I wrote these feelings of mine on one sided love.
please do tell me, how do you feel about one side love, what are your thoughts?
have you ever been in one sided love?
is one sided love good or a bad thing?
share your opinion with me.
